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Emotional eating...

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Back to school eating was as emotional as predicted and beyond...so off kilter...hungry ALL morning and starving even with morning snack! I ate a good breakfast of egg and whole wheat toast. i brought a protein meal bar for a late morning snack and had it by 9 a.m. watching the clock at 10:30 waiting for a chance to eat again! All summer long i had to make myself eat something before 11 so i could call it breakfast. So at 11:25 i Wolfed down prepared salad while driving around deciding if I could, should, would join friends for restaurant lunch. Decided to just come home and calm down. Added in a few extras but weighed and measured and tracked. Ate more than planned but controlled the BINGE. Avoided the "oh f... It attitude." Healthy choices of cheese and fruit...

While in my meeting waiting for lunch I journaled emotions and reasons and listed both negatives and positives. I know how emotional I can get with eating and no matter how much pre-planning and preparing and pre thinking I do, it still blind sides me at how strong the feelings are when they occur. I try to stay focused and positive. I reassure myself that I can contain this. I convince myself I have this under control, but deep down inside I fear and doubt because there are times when I truly cannot or should I say just don't want to. I want to eat. I want to pacify, feed, numb, etc...the stressors. Then comes the guilt...because I have so much to be grateful for and have succeeded and come so far... You have to have been through something like this emotional roller coaster to even be able to comprehend what it's like. I still cannot believe that this is my behavior. But I continue the battle because it is so worth it...

Have fallen off the deep end since but not giving up...!
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    Hope that the school year is going well
    1719 days ago
    Oh! Yes! "Blind sides" is such a good description. I think I have so much under control, and then WHAM! Binge-o-rama!

    Yay for both of us as we march onward and not curl up in defeat.

    Way to go!
    1772 days ago
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