Back in the Saddle Aaagain...
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Um, yeah. I think I could win an award for weight maintenance, but that really doesn't get me where I want to be, now does it? The last 15 pounds seem to elude me...no, scratch that. I am eluding them. I know why they aren't coming off. It's because I eat like a fat kid and dropped my exercising to 2 days per week, if I am lucky. I do have an excuse. I have been traveling for work like 90%. It's been hard, really hard. I had a mental breakdown in the presence of a Delta gate agent and an even worse one on the phone with 4 other Delta reps - yes, I said 4. It wasn't pretty, or rather, I wasn't pretty (I am NOT a pretty crier LOL. Think scrunched up face and incomprehesible words coming out of my mouth between snotty sniffles...the really snotty kind that sound like you could swallow a wad of snot the size of an orange as a result of the what should really be called a snort. Not the cute little airy sniffles.) I don't do well with change and managing my expectations. I own that. But WTH is wrong with me? I know what it takes and yet, I struggle with maintaining my motivation. I know all the facts/retorts to my excuses...I am tired - Exercise gives me energy. I should eat when I am hungry and snack on healthy foods regularly, yet I find myself in a constant hurry with no time to take care of me first. I don't east blaringly pitiful foods, I just eat too much of the good things (yes, that is bad too!!) Yada, yada.
I don't need advice...This is just a venting session. Encouraging words are always welcome, though. I am the direct type, in case you haven't figured that out yet. So, critical words meant to inspire are welcome as well. Sometimes I just need a reality check from someone other than my husband.