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Saturday, August 10, 2013

I went grocery shopping the other day, and when I got to the store, I parked my car at the far end of the lot. This is something I always do, rain or shine. No matter how hot or how cold it is outside, when I go shopping I ALWAYS park at the far end of the lot, so that I will get some extra steps. Its just a small way to get some bonus fitness on top of my regular daily workouts.

Anyway, I made my trek into the store, and headed straight for the produce section. Since adopting a healthy lifestyle 18 months ago, the produce section has become where I spend most of my time when at the grocery store. I took my time, choosing lots of fresh fruits and vegetable...lettuces, peaches, bananas, apples, sweet potatoes, tomatoes and more. For me, freggie shopping has become the new shoe shopping, lol.

I was feeling so fit and healthy as I shopped, and I was in a great mood. After the produce section, I headed to the middle of the store to get the rest of my groceries. On the cookie aisle, I took my time, because that aisle is a challenge for me! I have to buy cookies that my hubby and son will like...but then again, I have to make sure that the cookies I buy are ones that I DON'T like! I was trying to decide between the peanut butter ones, the oatmeal ones or the coconut ones. (I like peanut butter and oatmeal...I just don't like them in cookies, lol. And I can't stand coconut. So those are the "safe to buy" cookies.)

Anyway, I finally decided to get one package of each, since they were on sale. As I put them into my cart, a woman passed me going the other way. And I saw it...the look in her eyes as she glanced at the cookies in my cart and then back up at me. There was a look on her face. I could almost read her mind. I knew she was thinking that a fat girl like me didn't need to be buying all those cookies! I wanted to cry out "They're not for me!"

I've lost 71 lbs in the past 18 months, but the truth is that I'm still overweight and have a lot more to lose. Strange as it may sound, though, I sometimes actually FORGET that I'm overweight!

Does it take a special kind of stupid to forget that you're overweight? If so, then call me extra special, lol. But its easy for me to forget that I'm fat, because I don't care about weight. I care about health...and boy do I feel healthy! I have changed my life so much since last year, and I'm not the same sedentary, lazy and out of shape person that I used to be. I am fit, healthy and strong. I may not look like an athlete, but I feel like one! I wanted to tell that woman "Hey, I workout! And see all these veggies in my cart? THOSE are for me, not the cookies!"

But instead, I smiled at her and continued with my shopping. And after I finished my shopping, as I was walking out to my car, I noticed that she was at her car, unloading her groceries. She had parked just three spots away from the store. I held my head high as I walked all the way to the other end of the parking lot with my cart full of groceries.

People may look at me and see an overweight woman. People may judge me. I guess I'll always have moments of insecurity from time to time. To look at me, you might not guess that I'm a vegetarian and that I don't eat junk food, or that I workout almost every single day, or that I did the 30 Day Shred last month. People who don't know me might look at me and think negative things. But in the end, my opinion of myself is the only one that counts. I know how far I've come, and I know how hard I'm working to reach my goal.

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    1374 days ago
    this is so great. thank you for sharing!
    1527 days ago
    Ugh. I so know the feeling of having to do grocery shopping for others and buying things that you wouldn't be buying for yourself. For us it's soda. Hubby, daughter/s and I don't consume it (or at least not on a regular basis, and the kids not at all), but my aunt and grandfather (aunt lives next door, and we live with grandpa) insist that it needs to be in the house. Though I haven't gotten "those looks", it makes me feel dirty just putting those items in the cart. But even if they are in your cart, even if you DO eat those things, it's not like she could say "I bet she'll eat those 3 packs of cookies in one sitting". There's nothing wrong with the occasional indulgence, right?I have cookies and other junk food in our pantry, that quite honestly needs to be thrown out because it's been sitting there so long. We still have Easter candy... heck, we have last year's Easter candy. We still have part of last year's Halloween candy too. (I'd throw that out, but sometimes you just need a Snickers.) So keep that head up! You know that you're doing what you need to do to stay healthy, and no one else's opinion of what's in your shopping cart should matter. I'm sure her's couldn't have been much better since she was also in the cookie aisle, and she's probably going to actually eat the cookies in her cart.
    1674 days ago
    Well done! emoticon
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  • BUSMOM27
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    1694 days ago
    Great reminder that we don't always know the true picture. It is always so easy to jump to conclusions and be judgemental.
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    1696 days ago
    I am so impressed by your mindset and confidence in yourself!
    I know just how you feel about people looking at you when the items in your cart are not for you. My boyfriend likes to grab icecream, chips, multiple dips, frozen pizza and sugary kid cereal among a number of unhealthy things he throws in the cart (and the only weight problem he's ever had is being UNDERweight). The veggies and whole grains are my choices but I still feel embarassed pulling all that junk out of the cart and putting it on the conveyor belt to check out.
    1700 days ago
    As always - you hit the nail on the head.

    Like the word ASSUME...

    It makes an ASS out of U and ME!!
    1702 days ago
    That's Great! You're doing fantastically! You know how far you've come and if that person wants to judge, that's her loss. You don't need her approval, you need your approval!

    Way to go on staying strong and moving forward!

    1708 days ago
    emoticon You always have to remember with people like that that they are the ones with the problem, not you. It's not your problem that they have a problem with you. lol
    1710 days ago
    I always enjoy your blogs and how you put pictures with sayings that go along with what you are talking about. When it comes to grocery shopping I won't buy my mom a bag of cheetos but I will buy two bags of Dove's chocolates. One bag is milk chocolate for mom and Elijah and that usually lasts a month and the other bag is dark chocolate for me and that usually lasts over a month. If I want a piece or two of chocolate I'll grab it and eat it. I don't eat chocolate all the time.The big bag of cheetos that mom gets is gone in a week. I eat fruits and veggies and salads but I also like to have a small dish of ice cream. I don't want to deny myself something and then end up having a binge destroy the hard work that I have been doing. It's all about moderation. It's not like you are going to run into this lady everyday or even every time you go to the store. You are always going to get people who are going to be like this. Can't please everybody.
    1712 days ago
    I so feel you! How many times, when out jogging, I hear those rude comments about this fat Mama running. Especially since the average Kenyan does not understand the Galloway method of running and they think I am already tired, when I go into walking interval.... LOL. How sweet the success when I overtake them in the end and finish the halfmarathon before them.....
    I also forget at times that I no longer have that 23 inch waste of the days long gone and feel slender.... until I pass a window or mirror that is....

    Let's continue in our persuit of Health & a leaner body. You had done a wonderful job and let no one tell you otherwise!
    1713 days ago
    I absolutely loved reading this blog! Super well written, great perspective on self! Loved the part where she parked only a few spaces from the door and YOU, YOU walked ALL that way to the other end of the lot! It is SO something I am going to start doing! Way proud of you girl!
    1714 days ago
    Great blog....your are absolutely right. We cannot allow other people define who we are. emoticon emoticon
    1716 days ago
    I love that freggie shoping is the new shoe shopping. I need to look at it that way as well,. You are such an amazing and strong person pixie keep going you are doing it.
    1717 days ago
  • SPEEDY143
    ....freggie shopping has become the new shoe shopping, emoticon Shop On emoticon emoticon
    1717 days ago
  • DENISE14971
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    1717 days ago
    Thanks for sharing. That made my day. We are the only ones who truly matter when it comes to how we feel about ourselves. We just have to remember not to let others get to us. Thanks.
    1717 days ago
    Sigh. You will never please everybody right?

    It is YOU who has to be happy with yourself:) You are doing great. Have you ever looked at a few half marathoners? Some are quite overweight- not what you would expect. That body hides their awesomeness. You are probably fitter than a 100lb waif. Just sayin'. You're eating right. You're working out.

    You are doing so great!!
    1717 days ago
  • HFAYE81
    YES! This is me exactly! I'm a vegetarian, work out 4 days a week, and I've lost over 70 pounds!!! The cokes and chips in the cart are not for me!! emoticon
    1717 days ago
  • SEA1994
    emoticon emoticon This made my day, and made me want to cry (the good kind). Thank you! :]
    1717 days ago
    1717 days ago
    This sounds like me out in public, however I need to adopt your mind set. The way you think about yourself is nothing short of brilliant. We should all take a lesson!
    1717 days ago
    Awesome job! Keep it up! emoticon
    1717 days ago
    It's funny, sometimes I think I can read people's minds too, and what they are thinking is something negative and judgmental about me. But, what if that lady just had some gas, and was worried about passing it without anyone noticing, hence, her funny look?

    You keep on keepin' on, Mama! I love your term "Freggies". I'm gonna borrow it here and there.
    1717 days ago
    Thanks for your self talk. Very inspirational!

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    Thanks for sharing
    1717 days ago
    Keep up the good work & don't worry what others think. Always believe in yourself!
    1717 days ago
    loved this blog....yes I have seen those looks before. thanks for posting this.
    1717 days ago
    Thanks for the comment on my blog. A lot of people make judgments without really thinking of why others do things. Its wasn't really her business to consider why you had cookies in your trolley anyhow. She should have minded her business. Once in awhile others reactions can be somewhat hurtful. Another Spark Person wrote "its not my business to wonder what another person thinks of me." Its basically wasted energy. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1717 days ago
  • BOBBI4272
    Loved your blog! emoticon
    1717 days ago
    I stopped caring what others think long ago.

    I am 62, feel like 30, sometimes I forget how old I am and I am sure at times I show my age but I forget. You should see the look on others faces when they see me climb on my big ATV. They likely think Oh my, she is so old to be doing that-- you think I care? no way!

    It is the same with weight, I know I have good eating skills, I am working on the outside but I know the inside is doing well. People that judge me, can U Know what?!?!?!?

    Somedays, I think you are judging yourself. emoticon I bet you are looking so much thinner and still seeing the old you.
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  • RUDITUDI2000
    Phenomenal. Such a fantastic outlook! I'm working on mine.. :)
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  • J2740LOU
    emoticon Blog! You are a motivator and an inspiration to all of us. Your attitude is right on target. emoticon Together emoticon
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    1718 days ago
    I love this!! I am overweight too but I was thirty pounds heavier when I gave birth to my son. The past month I have been working hard at getting healthier. I used to be one of those skinny people who looked at others and wondered why they didn't just get into shape. Well, now I know. It is really hard!! Not to start working out but to get the needle to move. I have only seen the needle go up since I started. But I did start to feel healthier and better the last couple of days because I noticed I have more energy and some of my clothes are getting lose. I hope this keeps up. Maybe soon I will get below 200 like I want or maybe I'll just feel better and not worry about weight I think that would be better!!
    1718 days ago
    Great blog! I especially like the quote about not worrying about what someone else thinks. How you handled the situation is exactly what the quote is referring to.

    1718 days ago
    Well done! You are an amazing example for us!
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  • WISDOM73
    Dear Pixie, thanks for another great blog. It is so easy to be judgemental of others but so much harder to actually put yourself in their shoes. Good for you for not letting this woman's look and for not making any excuses. You know who you are and what you are doing with your life and that is all that matters. Keep it up girlfriend! Thanks for the inspiration!
    1718 days ago
    i was just talking about this to my sister yesterday, i am obese but I do not feel like it. Some people think because of my size I am unable to do everyday things that in reality i can do w/ no problem ! I also feel better than I look to myself. I walk pass a mirror or see my reflection in glass and have to do a double take because I do not feel that big.
    1718 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/12/2013 2:12:35 PM
    Loved that blog. You are great at writing!

    While I read it I was thinking you could so kick her ass! Ha!
    1718 days ago
    You are so right! Somedays I can feel so great about myself and then I look in the mirror and am surprised to see the weight present that I still have to lose. So you are not stupid, not at all. I also wish I could wear a sign that shows my accomplishments to the people around me, the ones who don't know all that I have accomplished in the past 8 months.

    So, be proud of what you've done, what we've all done, and keep the external voices from taking over!

    1718 days ago
    Pixie-- I really enjoy your blogs!

    We agree about coconut-- IF all my food was infused with the flavor of coconut, boy oh boy, would I be slim---!! LOL

    BTW-- I never have any interest in checking out anyone else's grocery cart. (Why??)

    Thank you for all the wisdom you provide for fellow Sparkers, Pixie!

    1718 days ago
    Great Job!!!!!
    Have had that happen to me and i just cowered, but now you have given me ecouragement and way to handle it. you are such an inspiration.
    Thank You very much for posting.
    1718 days ago
  • JILLRY03
    You have such a great out look!! It's hard not to be motivated when I read your blogs!! Keep up the good work!!
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