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Friday, August 09, 2013
"Panic! with the Disco.
Thursday, March 07, 2013
Last night I signed up for the next 6 months to work with a personal trainer. 6 sessions per month. It'll be 2 one week and 1 the next and so forth, mostly because that's all we can afford right now.
This is a big step and a big commitment, and while normally i would say the prices are outrageous in this case, i would give everything i have to reach my goals.
My trainers name is Heather Disco. And i can already tell she is going to be my best friend and worst enemy!
She is going to push me harder than i have ever been pushed before. But when she looked at me and said "I CAN get you to your goal, you have to do everything I say but I will get you there" I was all in.
She says 50lbs down by August. I know I can do this. I am confident in her.
And I just cant wait to be myself again."
Here I am, its August.
Nothing has changed.
I am aware that I am stronger, I can work out longer, I have gotten muscles. I can see some definition.... but I weigh exactly the same as I did 6 months ago, I am wearing the same clothes, and they still fit the same in all the same places.
I am beyond discouraged at this point. The 6 month pregnant with twins girl i work with and i weigh the same
I just dont know what else to do.
I'm not giving up, I will keep going, keep working, keep eating as best as i can.
I just was hoping for so much more.
I always see that "6 months from now you'll wish you started today"
well i did.....
its made no difference.
I dont know what else to do.