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Friday, August 09, 2013

Remember this?

"Panic! with the Disco.
Thursday, March 07, 2013
Last night I signed up for the next 6 months to work with a personal trainer. 6 sessions per month. It'll be 2 one week and 1 the next and so forth, mostly because that's all we can afford right now.
This is a big step and a big commitment, and while normally i would say the prices are outrageous in this case, i would give everything i have to reach my goals.
My trainers name is Heather Disco. And i can already tell she is going to be my best friend and worst enemy!
She is going to push me harder than i have ever been pushed before. But when she looked at me and said "I CAN get you to your goal, you have to do everything I say but I will get you there" I was all in.
She says 50lbs down by August. I know I can do this. I am confident in her.
And I just cant wait to be myself again."

Here I am, its August.
Nothing has changed.

I am aware that I am stronger, I can work out longer, I have gotten muscles. I can see some definition.... but I weigh exactly the same as I did 6 months ago, I am wearing the same clothes, and they still fit the same in all the same places.
I am beyond discouraged at this point. The 6 month pregnant with twins girl i work with and i weigh the same
I just dont know what else to do.
I'm not giving up, I will keep going, keep working, keep eating as best as i can.
I just was hoping for so much more.

I always see that "6 months from now you'll wish you started today"
well i did.....
its made no difference.

I dont know what else to do.

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    Just keep swimming. You are doing the right things. The math will eventually catch up.... and you know it's about more than the weight. It's about being more healthy.
    2103 days ago
  • KAITLYN993
    keep your head up dear! Thats all any of us can do.. just keep working at it. maybe take a new look at the food you're eating maybe the problem is there, or if your taking medications, look at the side effects. even allergies can be the cause. my mom was working out a while ago and drinking diet soda. after cutting out artificial sweeteners she started losing weight. maybe its something like that?

    keep up the hard work! You can do it!

    (p.s. dr. who is awesome! :D )
    2113 days ago
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