Thursday, August 08, 2013
So I've lost five pounds. In the past, I would have sneezed at this. I could starve myself and lose five pounds in a day. What's the big deal?
Well, it's this. In the past month, I realised that I have been doing my body a terrible disservice. Basically, what I would do is starve all day and then eat dinner and of course it was a lot because by then, I was out of control hungry. A long time ago, I read something that said your body is like a car. It needs petrol (or gasoline) at regular intervals to run properly. No wonder I had so many headaches and dizzy spells. And if the majority of what you put in the tank is sugar, how well do you think it's gonna run?
So I'm eating more. I know the weight that has come off is real pounds, not water weight. I've had a treat or two but I'm staying focused.
I'm sleeping better. Regular exercise is truly helping here. I suffer from PTSD and was taking sleeping pills to put me out but I'd be groggy and hungover the next day. I'm still having bad dreams but I can go to sleep on my own. Huge, huge deal.
I have more energy. Most days I would spend in bed if I could. I'd read, nap, watch movies on my Kindle and stress about what I should be doing but be too depressed to do it. I feel better. I get up and work out. It's helping me.
An unexpected benefit has been the absence of my acid reflux. For months, I've had heartburn so bad at night that I should have stock in Tums. At times it would wake me up. Since I'm not eating all those rubbish foods, it's almost entirely gone.
My self esteem is on the rise. I've failed so many times at this. But for a solid MONTH I have logged in every day, and held myself accountable for making this work. I saw picures of myself over last weekend and whilst I wasn't entirely happy with myself in them, I was laughing and smiling. I am making my way back to me.
I know there will be stumbling blocks and times when this seems too hard to do. It won't be all puppies and rainbows. But deep down, I know that I can do this.
One day at a time. One baby step at a time.