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Thursday, August 08, 2013

So I've lost five pounds. In the past, I would have sneezed at this. I could starve myself and lose five pounds in a day. What's the big deal?

Well, it's this. In the past month, I realised that I have been doing my body a terrible disservice. Basically, what I would do is starve all day and then eat dinner and of course it was a lot because by then, I was out of control hungry. A long time ago, I read something that said your body is like a car. It needs petrol (or gasoline) at regular intervals to run properly. No wonder I had so many headaches and dizzy spells. And if the majority of what you put in the tank is sugar, how well do you think it's gonna run?

So I'm eating more. I know the weight that has come off is real pounds, not water weight. I've had a treat or two but I'm staying focused.

I'm sleeping better. Regular exercise is truly helping here. I suffer from PTSD and was taking sleeping pills to put me out but I'd be groggy and hungover the next day. I'm still having bad dreams but I can go to sleep on my own. Huge, huge deal.

I have more energy. Most days I would spend in bed if I could. I'd read, nap, watch movies on my Kindle and stress about what I should be doing but be too depressed to do it. I feel better. I get up and work out. It's helping me.

An unexpected benefit has been the absence of my acid reflux. For months, I've had heartburn so bad at night that I should have stock in Tums. At times it would wake me up. Since I'm not eating all those rubbish foods, it's almost entirely gone.

My self esteem is on the rise. I've failed so many times at this. But for a solid MONTH I have logged in every day, and held myself accountable for making this work. I saw picures of myself over last weekend and whilst I wasn't entirely happy with myself in them, I was laughing and smiling. I am making my way back to me.

I know there will be stumbling blocks and times when this seems too hard to do. It won't be all puppies and rainbows. But deep down, I know that I can do this.

One day at a time. One baby step at a time.
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  • WATREKKIE
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    Yes indeed-y...babysteps will get you where you're going - with a better likelihood of permanence (rather than temp fixes - like your 5 lbs in 1 day).

    Keep it up, kiddo - you're doing GREAT!!! emoticon
    1774 days ago
  • NSMANN
    Congrats on your loss!! Eating many small meals thoughout the day actually spurs on the metabolism and promotes weightloss.
    1776 days ago
  • JUNESHOPE
    emoticon I absolutely know what you mean about acid reflux!! OMGoodness.. there were so many nights that the burning would just keep me up.. I hated it!! UGGGGG.. I never have it anymore. It's a WONDERFUL feeling.
    emoticon emoticon I used to be the same way.. I would lose weight fast, then relax, and gain it all back, plus some. It used to come off a lot easier than it does now. And I took advantage of ..."oh I'll lose it fast, but for now..I'm gonna eat this pizza".. I'm done with that way of thinking.
    emoticon Our bodies are high performance machines. Just like high performance cars need the premium gas, so do we... It's all about quality verses quantity.
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    emoticon Your spark friend, June
    1776 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/8/2013 11:03:52 PM
  • ELIVINGSTONTX
    5 lbs in a month is a healthy sustainable weight loss. You are doing this the right way. emoticon
    1776 days ago
  • PENNYPEARLS
    You have a VERY good attitude! Glad the healthy eating and exercise are making positive differences in your health and not just losing the pounds. I think that is what so many of us want, improved health overall. emoticon emoticon
    1776 days ago
  • BLUSHIOUS
    I LOVE this blog. I LOVE your positive energy. You are gonna blow this out of the water!

    Something in what you wrote struck a chord and reminded me of this blog I recently wrote (not sure if you caught this one):

    http://www.sparkpeople.com/
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    1776 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/8/2013 8:33:36 PM
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