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Tough week

Thursday, August 08, 2013

I have been like a whirlwind cleaning and purging my home of stuff the last two days. The stuff that I have accumulated is overwhelming and this cleaning is long overdue. While the two rooms I have concentrated on are not finished yet, they are in much better shape then before. I am proud of the success so far and thankful to have had the ability to focus on this task.

For the last two weeks I haven't been feeling 100%. My stomach (IBS?) has really been bothering me and I am just uncomfortable. This affects my breathing as well. It hasn't been bad enough to call the dr. but I may have to break down and do it. My sleep is off, my eating is not horrible, but could be better, and I have made it to the gym a few times. I'm not sitting around doing nothing, yet I still feel lousy.

My mood this week is focused on the upcoming anniversary of my brother, Jan's passing. It really is a difficult time for me. I try to keep it from my family because it bothers them to see me cry, but sometimes it just has to happen. To make this all worse, I committed to visiting friends out of town and I really just don't want to go. It's not that I don't want to visit them, but this is a tough week for me. I just want to get through it. I guess I was hoping the distractions would keep my mind busy, but I don't see it happening. It will be a long few days for sure. I hope to feel better so that my mood lifts some.

Sorry to dump....I was hoping to get some of the stress I am feeling out and feel more upbeat about my trip. We'll see tomorrow after a night's sleep. At the very least, Sunday will pass and my mood should lift some. Just in time for school to start in a couple of weeks....ugh.
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  • no profile photo OPTIGIRL43
    HI there...thx so much for the encouragement on my blog.
    Have a lovely week and i wish you all the success and happiness! emoticon
    1949 days ago
    emoticon I had a brother pass years ago so know the pain of missing them. Overtime have found the pain has diminished and can now remember the good times. Odd how a scent or something else triggers a flood of good memories. I look at it as his way of saying" hello, I'm okay". Try to keep your spirits up, sure he wouldn't want you moping....no honor in that. Hope you get feeling better soon. More Hugs spark friend. You are doing great!
    1963 days ago
    Big hugs to you Janine! I am sorry you aren't feeling well and have this anniversary on hand at the same time.
    2049 days ago
    Janine, I am sending you big hugs. I really feel for you. Cancer sucks. He would be so proud of all you have done in his name, but that doesn't make missing him any easier. If you need an ear... just call...
    2050 days ago
    IBS sucks. Hope you are feeling better and make sure you call the doc if you have to. As ONLY said, grieving takes years and you have to let yourself heal on its own good time. Pushing it can make it worse. I wish you happiness!!
    2050 days ago
    Big hugs.
    2051 days ago
  • DROSS0616
    Hang in there. Always here if you need to talk!
    2051 days ago
    Sorry for your loss. Those anniversaries are tough. Let those feelings out--you need to process them. Sometimes I go for a walk in the woods and have a conversation with a loved one who has passed. That way if I end up sobbing, no one can hear me. There are many ways to grieve. Find the one that works for you.
    Best wishes and
    2051 days ago
    Hang in there. The grieving process takes years to get through. Just do your best to keep busy this week, it will help emoticon
    2051 days ago
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