Thursday, August 08, 2013
I have been like a whirlwind cleaning and purging my home of stuff the last two days. The stuff that I have accumulated is overwhelming and this cleaning is long overdue. While the two rooms I have concentrated on are not finished yet, they are in much better shape then before. I am proud of the success so far and thankful to have had the ability to focus on this task.
For the last two weeks I haven't been feeling 100%. My stomach (IBS?) has really been bothering me and I am just uncomfortable. This affects my breathing as well. It hasn't been bad enough to call the dr. but I may have to break down and do it. My sleep is off, my eating is not horrible, but could be better, and I have made it to the gym a few times. I'm not sitting around doing nothing, yet I still feel lousy.
My mood this week is focused on the upcoming anniversary of my brother, Jan's passing. It really is a difficult time for me. I try to keep it from my family because it bothers them to see me cry, but sometimes it just has to happen. To make this all worse, I committed to visiting friends out of town and I really just don't want to go. It's not that I don't want to visit them, but this is a tough week for me. I just want to get through it. I guess I was hoping the distractions would keep my mind busy, but I don't see it happening. It will be a long few days for sure. I hope to feel better so that my mood lifts some.
Sorry to dump....I was hoping to get some of the stress I am feeling out and feel more upbeat about my trip. We'll see tomorrow after a night's sleep. At the very least, Sunday will pass and my mood should lift some. Just in time for school to start in a couple of weeks....ugh.