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Wednesday, August 07, 2013

I sit here every day and wonder what it would be like to be a runner. I sit here and listen to people talk about running and am envious. They make it sound easy.

I hate that I have gained weight this year. I hate that I can feel the extra 40 lbs when I move. I hate that I let it get this way.

I hate that despite this dialogue running through my head each and every day, hour, minute I went and bought two cupcakes and lunch today.

I have a few hours without kids today. I sat on the couch and watched tv.

I have an hour more without kids today so I got off my butt. I went for a run. I did. I didn't make it to the end of the road. I didn't make it to the caution sign. I did make it farther than I thought I would. In my head it's easy. In my body it's not. I'm great at Wii running. It will take time and effort to be good at real running. But I can't keep feeling like I'm the victim. I am the one who got me this way, I am the only one who can get me back the way I once was.
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  • STR458
    1749 days ago
  • KAT321123
    I completed Couch to 5K a while ago and can't say enough positive things about it. It got me from being a total non-runner to being able to run 3.1 miles. I run slowly, but at least I run! It was amazing.

    Be patient with yourself. And try to remember that your mind WILL try to trick you into stopping before your body really needs to. Good for you for being it a try!
    1752 days ago
    Running is not easy. I know, because I do it. I run 4 miles, with hills, 3 days a week, and it took me a long time to build up to that. Landmarking helped me a lot. Today, I will run to that lightpost. Next week, I will run one lightpost further. Give yourself time, and treat yourself gently and do what you can.

    1752 days ago
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