Wednesday, August 07, 2013

Sometimes life really just gets in the way.

Sometimes life gets really hard...

And sometimes, life decides to just take a giant poop in your front lawn!
(metaphorically speaking of course, since I have no front lawn...)

It's been a while since I last posted...

What have I been up to, you ask?

Well, German classes ended for me on the 18th of July. I have done nothing especially interesting since then. My days have become nearly unbearably boring. I wake up, have coffee and eat breakfast, study for the SAT, cook and eat lunch, study more if needed, goof around on the computer if I have time, review a bit of German, cook and eat dinner, go for a walk, go to bed. Good lord, I barely even notice I'm living in Germany any more. It's truthfully no different than living anywhere else. The only difference would be if we had a little extra money, just to drive the car a little bit and see a few places... I don't even want to go to restaurants, cafes, or coffee shops every day like most people here. I don't want to go shopping every day. I don't even want to go into expensive castles to see inside, and buy souvenirs. Just a little sight seeing now and then, even from the car! I really didn't mind at first, but after 7 months of it, I'm a little bit stir crazy. Have a terrible case of Cabin Fever, you know?

Aside from having no life despite living in Germany, I have been battling a terrible health problem for around 7 or 8 weeks...

I've done some research, and it appears to be Systemic Candida Overgrowth, or some such. The body naturally has candida, but when the balance is upset (my balance seems to be very, very upset) then it can cause a lot of bad things for your body. Basically, I feel like I constantly have the flu, I want to sleep all the time, my body hurts in random unexplained places, I have skin rashes that simply won't go away, peely feet, my rosacea is acting up like crazy in my face and arms, my bladder and kidneys hurt, and despite having had my Gallbladder removed in 2011, the area hurts again.

I did go to the doctor, about 5 times in 3 weeks. She confirmed my suspicions. She is very focused on natural cures(as all doctors here in germany,) so she told me she wants to let it naturally heal, rather than giving me a dangerous pill like fluconazole. So for about 3 weeks I did a relatively loose candida diet - no pasta, only black bread, eggs, fresh meats, poultry, fish, and fresh veggies/fruits. Plus some herbal supplements and probiotics.

But, it wasn't helping a lot, so I figured it wouldn't make much difference if I ate normally again. Especially since last weekend we had my boyfriend's little son, PLUS since saturday we've had a house guest - my boyfriend's friend from Egypt. It's really hard to make so many different foods.


After 3 days of eating normally, I feel like total POO. (just thought I'd let you know, I feel like using a much stronger word here, but opted not to, since I try to be polite)
All the skin problems came back in double, my throat hurts, my stomach hurts, my feet burn. BLAH!

So, I did some more research on the net, and I realized from the start I really wasn't being strict enough to make the candida diet really work. For the first 2 or 3 weeks you're not supposed to even have fruits, since they provide the Candida with food(sugar)
Starting today I'm trying to go back to the candida diet, except following it more strict now, since I really want these health problems finally gone!

Since all of this weirdness has been going on in my life, I really kind overlooked my weight... It's sad, actually, since I finally dropped under 200 lbs a few weeks ago, but was feeling too bummed and lethargic to make a big deal out of it. I really should have made a bigger deal out of it, gave myself a treat, or SOMEthing. It's just really hard to have enthusiasm about it when so many things are so... stale.

So, now my current weight is 195 lbs. Which truthfully, if I look past the lethargy of everything else, is pretty darned amazing. As I stated in a previous blog, I haven't been under 200 lbs since I was 12 or 13 years old. It's a huge milestone in my journey, and yet I was too "blah" to even pat myself on the back.

I really have to turn my thoughts and attitude towards a more positive direction. It's not healthy for me to feel like that all the time. I need to take joy and pleasure in living life again - even if I am living in boring way, at least I am alive, usually have enough food on the table, have a place to live, and most importantly, I still have the ones I love. No matter how near or far they may be.

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    Good deal! You know that we're rooting for you!
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  • KARASU_888
    Thanks everyone for all your support!

    about the second opinion, I went to another doctor before her and they didn't even want to see me, the front desk just gave me some cream for my rash and sent me on my way. I've tried to get appointments at other doctors but everyone's always full and doesn't want to take me on as a new patient.

    If I don't feel better within a few weeks of doing the strict candida diet I will definitely make sure I see another doctor, even if I have to go to another city to see one. Thanks again for everyone's concern and support. After venting, I feel much more positive. I'll post an update in a few days about how I'm doing.


    2495 days ago
    Would it be possible to get a second diagnosis?
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    I'd seek a second opinion about that diagnosis.
    2495 days ago
  • KIMPY225
    Sorry to hear about the health problems! Hopefully it will be better for you soon! Great job at being under 200! Keep up the great work when you can!
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    2495 days ago
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    Sorry that you're so bored; life is like that sometimes. But routine can be your friend when you are trying to be healthful. Sorry to hear that you've been feeling so poorly. It's really cool that the German doctors take a natural approach though. I'm sure that you're going to do well with the candida diet.

    Please don't overlook how well (amazing!) you have been doing with your weight loss. You should be celebrating! What you have done is so awesome--big hugs to you for your success!!

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    2495 days ago
    emoticon Getting and staying below 200!!! That is a huge deal, and you deserve that pat on the back!!! Focus on healing more than anything now :) The rest will come when you're feeling better again!

    2495 days ago
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