Monday, August 05, 2013
I got so many nice comments in the last entry, but then today was a much different story. I totally went into binge mode, and I'm feeling very depressed as a result. This week is "Cooking" week at the camp, and I was put in charge on a dirt cake activity with the kids today. I ended up eating dirt cake, oreos, gummy worms, and then continued to eat pizza, donuts, and a muffin later.
i don't understand why I lost complete control by the end of the day. I wish I could have just allowed myself to eat dirt cake and get back on track.
I am just going to have to get back on track tomorrow. I am grateful that I have a choice today. I don't have to stay stuck. Hopefully, I will be able to sort through all this and learn from these mistakes, to better understand myself and improve my relationship to food. This will be a journey.