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Friday, August 02, 2013

It's probably obvious that I've been off track. You can pretty much guarantee that whenever I go on an extended spark hiatus, it means I'm not doing well fitness-wise. I went through a pretty big rough patch this summer. There's no point in going into all the gory details but the general gist is that we had some serious financial issues and I had some serious mental health issues. So my eating took a big nosedive.

I got on some medication which seems to be at least somewhat helpful and we're working our way out of the hole a little but I still haven't got back on track. I feel absolutely terrible though. My skin is all broken out. I feel bloated and gross and all the other things that come along with a gluten sensitivity I'm now convinced that I have. I'm ready to start taking care of myself again.

The problem is that I just started back to work (NOOOOOOOOO!!!) and I know it's going to be hard to make eating healthy a priority while working full time. I want to do the whole30 again but I'm already doubting myself about it just because I know how much thought and prep needs to go into it and I struggled with it even when I was home all day. Plus, I can already tell that this year is going to be really stressful. Tons of changes I'm not very excited about. What kind of impact that will have on my goals, I have no idea yet. But I definitely can't keep eating pizza and donuts so I'm just gonna have to give it my best shot. I don't have any idea how much weight I've gained on this binge. My clothes are tight and it's pretty depressing but compared with everything else I've been dealing with, it's kind of bottom of the list right now.

Anyway my plan is to start on Monday. I'm compiling a grocery list now and hopefully I can get some things prepped over the weekend and just dive right in on Monday. I feel like I was so close to really getting myself together when I did the whole30. I hate that life knocked me down again but I just can't stay down. That's the important thing.
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    I think you're stronger than you know and are giving yourself credit for! You can certainly eat healthy and work full time, but you have to add some time in your week (probably on weekends) to organize and prep food. Pack your lunches and snacks for work; make meals for a few days ahead of time and then you can come home and heat them up. Easy, peasy! You'll be able to do it as long as you commit to YOURSELF. Things may feel like they're out of control around you but what better way to begin to get a handle on it than taking control of your health and fitness? If you're feeling good on the inside, things won't seem as uncontrollable. And don't feel like it all has to change right away! If it has to be slower going at this point, there's no harm in it. I know you wanted to jump right in on Monday but if you weren't 100% successful with full on Whole30 type meals, don't get discouraged! Little steps can make a big difference!
    1750 days ago
    Don't give up, you can get back on track. Do as much prep ahead of time as you can, enlist hubby's help if you can. You are much too important to put yourself at the bottom of the list. The better you care for you, the better you can deal with the rest of life.

    1754 days ago
    I'm here for you and will be doing another Whole30 with you. I started back on track today, and I am really excited to see what results another month will yield. I'm here f you need anything. Just reach out to me!


    It may be difficult with being at work to do a Whole30. I know my work is difficult. So far this morning I have passed up a doughnut, chocolate covered pretzels, and some cookies. I just keep thinking about that bridesmaid dress I will be parading around in (two months from now), and I don't even need to cave to that nasty old Sugar Dragon. Find something you really want, and make it a visible goal. maybe it will help!
    1754 days ago
    Awwwwwww girly, sending you a big hug!

    I often shy away from things like whole30 because of working full time. It really does make things harder. You're already trying to squeeze in SO much, you have to make the best out of what you CAN accomplish.

    I have found a few tricks for the work/life balance thing. Happy to share them if you're interested! The good news is that it IS possible to be healthy and work full time. It just takes a little more planning and education! I've also been cutting gluten too, so lots of ideas for you there too!

    I think as long as you're making steps to be a healthier you, no matter how small they may be, you're moving in the right direction. You know it will make you feel better, and you know what you need to do to feel better. That is the first step!

    And feel free to rant or message me anytime! I have been through many financial up and downs in my lifetime and have an understanding ear (eye, since this is on the computer?) to lend.

    Chin up! You can do this!!!!!!!!!!!

    1754 days ago
  • KPA1B2
    It's hard to have financial problems and mental health problems at the same time. At least if you have to pay a co-pay every time you see a mental health professional. Yup, been there, done that.

    It sounds like you are putting a good plan in place. I have found that when I have pre-cut those veggies for lunch & pre-packaged them I'm much more likely to grab them when I make my lunch.

    Planning family dinners is something I do every weekend. The what's for dinner question has become, when's dinner?

    Good luck!
    1754 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Sorry to hear that you have been going through so many hard times this summer. Like you said, the important thing is that you aren't giving up. It is hard, life is hard, but don't give up. You are worth not giving up! Hope things are on the up swing for you!
    1754 days ago
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