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Finally Back On!

Friday, August 02, 2013

I've finally drug myself back onto the eating healthier and being more active wagon. Yee hah! I even stayed within my calorie range (averaged over the past 7 days). That even included a three day mini vacation and eating at a fabulous buffet every night. I'm pretty proud just because that showed planning and commitment: packing fruit and healthy snacks asks banking calories so I could really enjoy the prime rib, salmon, and tasty deserts!

However, over the past months, actually since Phil was in the hospital in March, I struggled with weird (for me) binges. In the past I gained all my weight with pedestrian overeating, a diet rich in fats and salt. On the day I took him to the emergency room, I didn't eat a thing until he got checked in to the VA hospital at 9:30 that night. I stopped at Safeway on my way home, bought a box of cookies from the bakery and ate all of them before going to bed. I made healthy fast food choices over the next week such as Subway and Panda Express, but continued binging on cookies every night. After he was released, I continued with the sugar, and he joined in. As the spring progressed and the school year school year drew to its ever-stressful conclusion, I added binging on alcohol into the mix and that behavior continued through the 4th of July. I continued sparking, drinking plenty of water, and eating pretty well during the day, but all bets were off in the evening. I has few good days sprinkled here and there throughout the spring and early summer, but most were pittiful attempts. I've been working hard to regain healthier habits through July and finally had a whole week that was successful. Big questions remain: why did I binge, what triggered that behavior, what are the warning signs, how will I avoid that repetitive behavior in the future?

Sparkhugs to my Sparkbrothers and Sparksisters!
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  • PCOH051610
    Sorry I missed this! emoticon
    1732 days ago
  • ANGIEC77
    My dear friend,
    I too struggle with making good choices when the going gets tough. Well actually I even struggle during times of celebration. But I think the most important thing is you haven't given up!!!! We can help eachother out if you'd like? I know we have a little distance so can't go for walks, or be active together as much as I would like. However, we can sort of sponser eachother and if we're having a challenging day or week perhaps call eachother? We are a lot alike and tend to keep to ourselves when the going gets tough. We both know that we would be there for eachother. So how about from now on if we are feeling like we may be out of control with food or alcohol we dial a friend? It may sound a little korny but I think it's worth a try.

    1750 days ago
    I believe what the others are saying. Stress can be a great factor in binge eating habits that we don't realize it. Eating well all day and then binging at night, I believe, is a stress relief. But that's okay. You know what it is. You are getting back on track and that's great. We've all been there.
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    1751 days ago
    I think that when we are worried about a loved one, craving comfort foods, such as cookies, is a natural reaction to the stress. I've spent my share of time before waiting around hospitals when I've had family there; and often it's hard to find healthy snacks in a hospital, especially if the cafeteria is only open certain hours and all you are left with is vending machines.

    Kudos to you for getting back on track!
    1752 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    That is great that you are back on! Sorry to hear that you have had such a hard time. One day at a time...you can do it!
    1753 days ago
  • PCOH051610
    So glad to see you back on! Yay!

    I've never been a drinker so I don't know about the alcohol bingeing but I do know I binge a lot at night! It's something I'm trying to work on.
    1753 days ago
  • JULIA_211
    When I was taking care of my mom, I didn't eat, I didn't have time. I survived on coffee and/or grapes all day long and lost 21 lbs.

    When I had to leave her in a nursing home, and I'd come back from visiting her, that's when my binge eating started again, and I have regained the 21 and then some. I was stuffing down my emotions with food.

    I'm sorry that you've been having such a tough time, I know how that is.

    Congratulations on your on-track week, and coming back to sparkdom! emoticon Keep up the great work! One day at a time! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1753 days ago
    It's good to have you back and to get yourself back on track. I think stress and the unknown are HUGE reason for overeating at times. You had a lot of that, but now you can put some focus back on you now.
    1753 days ago
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