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The Music Memories of Our Lives

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Music plays a huge part in our lives. Whether it is in the background, (music everywhere we the car, in the stores while we shop, at work, sporting events), or whether it is something we are actively listening to, at a concert, on our iPhones and iPods as we exercise, listening to CD's we buy with our hard-earned money.

Recently Du purchased a year's worth of Sirius Radio for our car. He has had Sirius for several years, I got it for him for Christmas one year. He listens to it in his shed. So now we have TWO subscriptions for Sirius. When I'm in my car alone, I listen to my favorite station, through commercials, through ads, through DJ's talking, but Du is constantly switching stations, looking for that perfect song. He loves the music of the 70's, rock music, and has found a whole group of stations on Sirius devoted entirely to the 70's. He also found a show tunes station for me, and opera for Lola (that's a long story--but Lola responds to the HIGH notes she hears when opera is sung).

I was just out picking up some pain pills the doctor had called in for me. I am still having kidney stone-like pain, and it is agony. I need to get well FAST. One of us needs to feel good, so we can take care of the sick one, and that well one needs to be me! The doctor's office called and said the urine culture didn't show an infection, so they have ordered at CT of my abdomen and pelvis. This is the family doctor. When I have gone to the urologist in the past for kidney stones, they x-ray my tummy. That is so much easier, quicker and CHEAPER. I am going to call the urologist's office today and see what they think. My CT appointment is tomorrow morning.

While I was in the car, I was listening to the 70's LOVE song station on Sirius. Karen Carpenter came on, singing, "Rainy Days and Mondays Always Get Me Down."

Karen holds a special place in my heart. First, I think she sang beautifully, and I got to see her in concert back in 1972. "Rainy Days,"is probably not one of my favorite songs that she sang, I much prefer, "We've Only Just Begun," which was popular about the time we got married, and describes a young couple just getting married and how they're going to "Start out walking, but learn to RUN!" Reminds me of how Du & I felt back in those days. The second reason Karen holds a special place in my heart is because of her premature death due to an eating disorder. Although anorexia is really hard for me to understand, I do not underestimate its powerful control over people, nor its devastating effects. I simply cannot fathom NOT wanting to eat. I used to joke that I wished I had just a "touch" of anorexia. Bad joke, I know! It's a very serious condition, much like obesity.

But I was listening to the words in "Rainy Days" on my way to the drugstore this morning, and feeling sorry for myself.

Talkin' to myself and feeling old.

Sometimes I'd like to quit;

Nothing ever seems to fit;

Hangin' around, nothing to do but frown;

Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

What I've got they used to call the blues:

Nothin' is really wrong;

Feelin' like I don't belong;

Walkin' around, some kind of lonely clown;

Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

Funny, but it seems that I always wind up-a here with you;

Nice to know somebody loves me.

Funny, but it seems that it's the only thing to do:

Run and find the one who loves me.

What I feel is come and gone before:

No need to talk it out;

We know what it's all about.

Hangin' around, nothing to do but frown;

Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

The song just described my mood on this foggy Tuesday. Yesterday was a rainy Monday, however since the rain is so badly needed, it sure wasn't the weather that got me down! The song is sort of optimistic at the end though--as it talks about finding that person who loves you, cause that always seems to help.

I feel absolutely awful from this kidney stone or whatever it is, and very very old and I don't think my Du is feeling well either. He always says he is "okay," but clarifies that by saying, "Not great....but okay." I want to ask him if he thinks he is feeling worse now than back in March when he was diagnosed, but I'm afraid to know. If he is going downhill already, that is so scary and it will be easier for me to stay upbeat if I don't know that for an absolute fact. That's's just trying to bury my head in the sand....but it's all I can do right now.

After that depressing song was over, "Cherish" by The Association came on Sirius.

I loved that song back in 1966 when it was first popular, and I love it today. Du & I saw The Association perform in concert when we first started dating back in 1969. After they fell from the top of the charts, they used to perform at smaller venues, more cheaply too, and we saw them three or four more times over the years, always enjoying their music, no matter which members of the original group were actually performing it on stage. The words in this song cheered me up, because even though it is about an unrequited love, and when the song was first popular I had never been in a relationship with a guy, although I'd experienced many crushes during high school, it wasn't until I found Du that I was "requited!" And since we saw this group perform early in our courtship, they remain a favorite and the song reminds me of happy times and in my case, a very "REQUITED" love between Du & I.

So when I get well, I will quit being so melancholy and will get back to my usual "upbeat" self. But for today, I like reminiscing about music of my youth, my past, because it brings back some lovely memories.
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    Let us all be grateful for pleasant memories! Take your time each day and acknowledge all your emotions, both pleasant and unpleasant. Tough times take patience. Sometimes we have to grieve the process to move forward. Take care of yourself. Enjoy the music while doing so. Thanks for sharing. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1783 days ago
    Thanks for the memories. I hope you feel better soon.
    1784 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    Oh, my dear, you need relief from pain and you need it NOW! I hope you get it real soon. I agree that music is a powerful force and I, like you, am very moved by lyrics. I like old music sometimes, but I am also glad that my kids keep me introduced to current music - there is a lot of good music being made. I don't know about you, but when I listen to music I have no urge to overeat but when I read, or watch tv or use the computer, the urges and cravings appear. Strange, right? Thinking of you and your beloved....
    1784 days ago
  • LINDAK25
    Hope you're feeling better soon!
    1784 days ago
    Wonderful memories that only songs can inspire. HUGS!
    1784 days ago
    Hope you feel better soon But I also loved them and can't believe you got to see them (The Carpenters) And I also remember were I was when I heard that she had died That was really sad, and she was way to young emoticon But thank you for your blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1784 days ago
    Music is SO powerful. Hope you are feeing better soon.
    1784 days ago
  • KERRYG155
    Hope you're feeling better real soon. I love those songs, too, but my husband never lets me change the station on his Sirius radio. He keeps it on one 60's station so every day we have to listen to the same recording of DJ and songs. ugh I tried to get him to try the '70's but noo.. he wouldn't do that. Maybe next trip I'll try again. lol
    1785 days ago
    Hang in there! I love the songs you talked about and yes, some days WILL get us down. But you have LOVE and that will ALWAYS prevail. Hope they figure out what is going on with you so you get some relief NOW!!
    1785 days ago
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