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Finally!!!!!

Saturday, July 27, 2013

So even though I know I should only weigh in once a week, after Wednesday and seeing a .6 lb gain, I weighed myself on Friday. And I had dropped two pounds. Woo hoo! Even though SP only credits me for one (when I joined I was 185 and they don't consider the possibility that people might go up, not down), I really lost two. I officially came back and started setting goals for myself on July 12th, so it's been two weeks. I think I had started logging in to SP a week before that and then started to lose focus, didn't walk on the treadmill for a week and almost gave up again. But I gritted my teeth, reached out to some wonderful people and am back on track.

It was so hard for me to get on that treadmill. I came up with every excuse in the book not to plus a few that weren't in the book. I am a Grade A procrastinator. But when my son pointed out that I hadn't been on the treadmill in a week - he could tell because I put stickers on my calendar to track my exercise and motivate myself - I thought, I'm going to do this. I am going to set a good example for my child. So I grabbed my Kindle ( I'm rewarding myself for working out by allowing myself to watch Doctor Who episodes ONLY when I am on the treadmill), a stick of gum, a bottle of water and dragged myself out to the garage. That was five days ago and I cannot believe the difference in how I feel. All those nutters going on about how exercise makes them feel better? They were RIGHT. Who knew?

I feel better. Stuff is shifting around. My self esteem is increasing. I am taking care of myself. Finally. I can't say that I'm there yet - two weeks is a drop in the bucket - and I know there will be days when I'm not going to feel like doing anything. But if I can do this for the majority of the time and stop beating myself up for being human and not being perfect, I think I'm going to succeed. Let me say that again. I am not perfect. I am human and I have made, do make and will continue to make mistakes. But that's okay.

The bonus to this revelation is that I have increased energy. I haven't had an afternoon nap since I started exercising. And I love my naps. Things are getting done that I have been putting off.

The first few days that I walked were not great. My feet hurt. I wanted to stop. I sweated a lot. But I kept going and by day three, I could feel a difference.

I'm excited. I think I am starting to see the big picture. Eating right and exercising are not forms of torture and denial. It's taking care of yourself, letting you have the life you've earned and want. I'm going to keep going.
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  • JUNESHOPE
    "Nutters".... I LOVE IT! lol emoticon

    emoticon This blog sounds word for word, like a blog I would have written!!! I haven't had a nap in several days... very VERY unusual for me. Not wanting to get on the Treadmill, but once I do...not so bad. It fills me with self esteem that I'm actually doing it.
    emoticon I can totally feel that I'm getting stronger. I've been walking for 15mins, but yesterday I walked over 20min and wasn't bothered at all. My joints hurt just for a little afterwards, (because of my rheumatoid arthritis), but it went away fairly quick, and I feel I can bump it up to 30min each day next week. yeah.

    emoticon You keep saying that I motivate you... Girl you motivate me! Keep up the good work, and thanks for being here.
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    1911 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/27/2013 4:08:22 PM
  • KG4PVOWIFE
    Glad you have such a supportive son. Congrats for getting on that treadmill. Energy gains were, even more than weight loss, the reason I got back on the wagon last weekend. I had been waking up tired and having trouble going the whole day without a nap. I am also already noticing I have a lot more energy now that I am working out again. I heard somewhere that it takes three weeks to make a habit, so if we can go that long and stick with the plan, we will start to CRAVE the work outs!
    1911 days ago
  • NSMANN
    This blog was very well written, and more importantly, has the right attitude. So I went back and read some of your older blogs. You and I have a close reboot date (mine is July 8). So I will be watching your progress and looking forward to hearing from you through more of these blogs. Maybe we can cheer each other on. My instrument of torture is also the treadmill, and I also reward myself with TV while I'm doing it. If you're finding it hard to put in the treadmill time, try going a little bit lighter? (if you're not already walking, try just walking on flat level?) Maybe that will make it more tolerable for you.
    1912 days ago
  • 2DAWN4
    Keep up the great work!

    1912 days ago
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