My three week vacation/phish tour has come to an end. I did not meet my lofty goal of losing 14 pounds. I believe I lost about 5, which is normal, healthy weight loss. With so much weight to lose, I really wanted it to happen a little faster in these early stages, but I guess that's just not the case.
I have to admit, I'm a bit surprised by the 1.2 weight loss this week because we walked so much in Chicago, danced our bums off, and ate very little. I think my body is sort of plateauing, which is very discouraging for me and makes me feel a bit like getting off track. I have been craving eating for the sake of eating and desserts like crazy.
I want to become strong-willed like I was at the beginning of this journey. I need to begin exercising more often especially now that I am no longer dancing every night. Although, I will be tomorrow for my day pass at Gathering of the Vibes! Dancing and hooping. I'm excited.
I have also been really off track with sleep and I know that can interfere with weight loss. I also began drinking diet soda. I also ate chocolate today...one of these sugar free diabetes bars that made me feel sick after. I just feel like I'm toying with the line of losing my grasp, and I still have a long way to go.
I know I shouldn't compare to the past, but I can't help but remember when 200 seemed so big, and now I am trying so hard just to get back under that weight.
Let's think of the positives. I feel better eating better. I know I am getting far more nutrients than I was when I was eating everything in sight. This is more heart healthy (excluding the processed/cured meats I tend to eat), which is honoring my father's early death from a heart attack. I started working at a camp, so keeping up with the kids will keep me active. I didn't sit at all during the Phish shows. Back in 2009, when I was thinner, but using drugs and eating like crap, I frequently got tired and had to sit even if we were on the lawn. I have way more natural energy these days.
I need to keep my eyes on the prize. I will post a couple of motivating pictures. I have never been thin, but I will post my thinnest photos from 2006-2007 (I think).
halloween 2006 - low carb and working out like crazy...still have a bit of a belly
Summer of 2007 - I remember I hated this picture because I thought I looked so chubby! If this doesn't convince me to love myself where I'm at, I don't know what does.