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Taking GF and grandbaby to airport this morning

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Good Morning; it is very early. I am not able to calm my mind down. The decision has been made that we need to focus on DS. We all love the baby but it comes with baggage the mom. Ever since the decision was made, ticket bought and everything packed, they have been working together - acting like a team - hugging and interacting with the baby. Like kids, they do not change until there is no choice.
But DH & I feel with GF and baby here, DS will not focus on his health and PTSD.
The only way this is all working; we are saying that this is temporary for 6 months.
This is how immature GF is- I just found out that she wanted a cat and DS gave her a cat to be happy. She does not take care of the animals when she gets them. When I found this out, I counted to 3 and then I outlined all the pets that they have had and given away when both of them would not managing them well. Any way, we are taking GF and baby to airport and have to go to Killeen to give cat to some who wants it on craigs list. DS will be giving up his apt and moving back home to live. With PTSD, We feel that he will get more depressed without his daughter if he is alone. This all came to a head which was this weekend. I did not realize what a panic attack is like until I saw DS have one. He actually just dropped to the floor and it looked like he was going to have a seizure. I got on the floor and just held him and talked to him.
The puppy immediately came over and started licking his face and getting under his arm - this is why he needs a service dog. When I saw and experienced what a panic attack is, I said I said a prayer. God, I think this is what I must do be my son's battle buddy. A peace came over me. My son needs help - I am the one who is enlisting for duty. It will be hard and I will need your all support. I may not be on all the time, but my goal is to be on as much as possible. I want others to read and get help from this experience. We are still trying to navigate the process of where his benefits are. But I feel strong for today, I am going to take it one day at a time. I am also going to work with my exercise and eating well. I have actually lost weight since this weekend. I am eating well - good food. I am getting back to the gym. I got side tracked due to trying to get every arranged for GF and baby.
I feel better just writing this. I am going to try to get a little more sleep. TY
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  • CONCHA77
    It's been a while since I checked in. Looks like you have your hands full. Know that i am sending along my prayers and know that I think of you as a very strong lady that can accomplish anything you put your mind to.
    All the Best, Connie (((Hugs)))

    1760 days ago
    I have been gone for most of a week now, and did not know that everything had come to a head, I am so sorry, but as we all know, it may be for the best, with your son's medical problems he sure does not need another one,
    I will read your past blogs, and pray that all goes well soon. emoticon Mary
    1761 days ago
    My heart goes out to you in these trying times. Each day when I say my prayers, your family is spoken for as well.
    Keep taking good care of yourself first. To be strong for helping your son and DH.
    1761 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear that things have gone down hill again with the GF and her selflessness. I pray that this 6 month living arrangement will help both of them. I pray that she does not call him constantly every day, so that he can heal. I will continue to pray for your entire family. Please make sure that you and your husband take care of each other. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • DR1939
    I get very upset when people minimize such things as panic attacks and depression by saying oh, I was panicked yesterday or I was in a depression. I think it is an injustice to those who have these very frightening episodes. BTW, I also get upset with people who say they are poor but actually have an adequate income or are temporarily short of funds, e.g., college students. This, too, minimizes the plight of those who are truly poor.

    Good for you for stepping up to your son's situation.
    1761 days ago
    I am so happy for you that she's leaving. Now maybe you can have some peace and focus on yourself and son.
    1761 days ago
    Words fail me. I cannot tell you ho sorry I am that all of this is happening to you, your DH and of course, your DS. BUT I will remember you in my prayers that He continues to bless you with all the strength you need to help your son AND yourself. God bless that grandbaby.

    I just am so sorry.
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  • TERRY789
    My heart goes out to you. PTSD is such a real issue for so many people. I hope you have found the resources he needs to deal with the PTSD. There are ways to help lessen the PTSD, but they are not always easy to access, but do not give up. I would be interested to hear what help he is getting and how he is progressing.

    Most important of all, you and your husband must take time out to take care of yourselves. Being a helper/caregiver can be challenging to you physical and mental help. Please take care of yourself too.

    Keep on doing the things you an to record your food, drink your water and try to sleep.

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