Monday, July 22, 2013
Wow, that week off totally derailed me. I thought I had managed to push through it, then whammo, I disappeared for three months.
Part of it was just being flat-out tired. Tired of the hours and hours of working out and just not feeling like I was going to meet my triathlon goal. I think I was a little bored with the workouts as well...especially the bike. I really got to the point that I loathed getting on that bike with a passion. I think it really fell apart once I met that 15 mile goal. I didn't really know how to structure my workouts after that and I felt guilty if I didn't get 15 miles every single time.
The other part was my life getting pretty crazy. I had a friend refer me to a recuriter who was looking for someone in my field for a long-term contract position with a marketing company. After about five interviews, I was offered the job and couldn't turn it down. It allowed me to work form home all the time and it paid more. Who could pass that up?
I started that job on my birthday, May 20. It's been a little over two months now and I really like the job. It's extremely flexible and I had experience, so it was easy to pick up the day to day tasks.
The extra income and time at home has allowed me to finally start on home projects, which took up more time. I am almost finished with my new office and will hopefully put the finishing touches on it this week.
Things with B have been great as well. We went to Mammoth Cave in May and have been to two concerts so far this summer. We're planning a trip to St. Louis in a few weeks. He has, surprisingly enough, been the motivation for me to trudge back here. Apparently he has been gaining weight and when the scale went to over 200 pounds, he hit his breaking point. He's been training for a 5K for next month and has lost 12 pounds in his first month of actively trying to lose weight.
There's been so much going on that I just haven't really had the time nor desire to exercise or even keep my eating in check. The working from home part makes it way easy to overeat, and while painting and home improvement projects keep you active, they are no substitute for workouts even though they leave you just as exhausted.
A few weeks ago I sucked it up and hopped on the scale. I was at 223.4, which is the heaviest I've been in 2 1/2 years. I usually stall out in around 210 when not actively trying to lose weight, but this time that didn't happen. I'm pretty disappointed and disgusted that I now have to bust my butt to just get back to 210. And I will never, NEVER let myself get back to 253.
So time to reset. I tend to do well with laid out workout plans, so I've been walking the last 2 weeks and today was Day 1 of the SP Rookie Running 5K program. I did manage to get some awesome running shoes for my birthday in May, which has prompted the new attempt at running. And trust me, there is a HUGE difference. No knee pain whatsoever. My back is a different story, but I suspect that will go away after a few weeks. The other 2-3 days I'm just trying to walk, swim, help people move...anything that will keep me somewhat active. ST is going to have to wait a few weeks at least.
Diet has mostly been a focus on moderation. I've tried to pair a basic salad with just about any meal that I can add it to to give more volume with fewer calories. Salsa is my new best friend. Fruit, peanut butter, yogurt, and eggs. I've overdone it on calories in the past week, but I know it's way, way down from what I was stuffing my face with before that, so I know I'll get there. Today, in fact, I'm pretty close to 1500 calories for the day.
For now, the overall plan is just to readjust back. I have picked up enough through my various moments of successful weight loss that I know I can pretty much eyeball any food I'm making and be able to determine if it's going to be overkill and what I can cut out to make it reasonable. I don't know if I have the patience to count every single calorie, but I think I can at least write down what I'm eating. I will track when I can and don't sweat it if I don't.
Of course, all of this is subject to change. But last week I posted a 2 pound loss, so so far, so good.
When I was training, eating/exercising kind of became a huge focus for me. I got sucked up by being on SP for hours every day, which was OK because I didn't really have much actual work to do. But now things are different. I want to find a balance between encouraging my Sparkfriends and posting vs. the other things I'm doing. I'm working 40 hours a week, renovating, about to start guitar lessons, trying to be somewhat social with my friends and family, spending time with B and the cats, and some days I'm just trying to find a few hours to quietly read. So you add extra food prep time and exercise to that, and I know if I'm not careful, I'll be up all hours of the night on here. So there's something I have to watch. I can't let all of this consume me like it did before. I think that was part of the reason I quit. It was too hard trying to juggle everything.
Anyways, sorry for the length of the post. I missed you guys! I am slowly making my way through the feed, so I'm glad to be back and am ready to make things stick this time.