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Tough day

Monday, July 22, 2013

Last night, I had a hard time getting to sleep. As I tossed and turned, it occurred to me that it was the eve of the anniversary of my stepmom's passing away. Then I really had a hard time getting to sleep!! That night 2 years ago, I didn't sleep at all. I was flooded with memories of that heartbreak and thoughts of how much I have missed her, all the events in my life that I sorely wish she were here to enjoy with me! It's been a downer of a day!

Despite my emotions and general lack of energy, I went up (workout space is on the 3rd floor here) and got my exercise done. I was really pleased to find I could use a heavier weight on many of the moves. I felt the sadness and lethargy kind of fall away as I focused on the movements, and felt SO much better by the end. That was nice. I almost want to go do it again!

Later, I came across a pair of shorts from a few summers (and sizes) ago that I'd forgotten I had. Just for the heck of it, I tried them on. I got them zipped up, and though it wasn't a great fit, they went ON! Wouldn't have been able to do that 17 pounds ago, wahoo!

My eating has been great, I've been doing pretty well staying within my ranges. I'm lower than usual on protein today and can feel it, but I'm still right on track. Clinging onto keeping my simple steps in line, at least for today! Ugh. Can't wait for bedtime.
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    Great way to work out stress. I have done the same thing found some dresses I bought a couple years ago (just took their tags off) and I have been wearing them - just cuz they fit.... Ooooh doesnt' that feel good..
    1795 days ago
    I hope today is a happier one for you.

    You are doing so well with your choices, and the shorts are just another NSV in a long list of them you've earned!
    1796 days ago
    My heart is with you, this morning thinking of my grandma who was with us for 99 years. Your step mom would be so proud of you. Hope this day is great!
    1796 days ago
    1797 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon on the shorts fitting and sorry today was a hard day for you.
    1797 days ago
    I think your stepmom would be very proud of you.
    1797 days ago
    I'm so sorry you are feeling the sadness of your stepmom's passing. It is hard to lose someone that was very special in your life. You handled the sadness in a very positive way. emoticon
    1797 days ago
    What a great blog. It is so hard when we lose our loved ones. I hope you find solace in the good memories you have of your times shared together.

    I find exercise helps my depression. I think I'd need meds if not for it. I'm glad you found some healthy relief.

    emoticon job on your intake. Keep up the good work.
    emoticon on the shorts fitting ! Isn't that a great feeling !

    Wishes for a peaceful slumber tonight. emoticon
    1797 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/22/2013 5:03:52 PM
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