Moment of truth? This isn't pretty, don't read if you want encouragement!!
Monday, July 22, 2013
I have been making really poor choices in eating. My meals have been healthy, but I have been snacking on junk pretty consistently. I can't put a positive spin on this, I just can't. I'm pretty disgusted with my junk food consumption. I have excuses, a boatload of them, but don't we all?
I've been tracking everything, even the junk, so I can see it, and it's not been pretty. So, my actions aren't matching my words, my goals. When the cookies and chip calories are the larges chunk of my nutrition pie, disgusting! I truly feel like a fraud here. I've been trying to be a leader on a team, shouldn't a leader be more accountable, set a better example?
At this moment, I'm feeling like I've made zero progress in the years here on Spark. As of this morning, my weight is higher than it was when I rejoined. My habits are the same, I exercise a lot, I eat alot.
Something has to change. Either I just admit I really don't want to be at a healthy weight or I start living like I want health. I can't keep up this double life, I'm just lying to myself.
I've got my vision collage out this morning. Reset weight goals, again. This is just insane, I can't keep doing the same stuff and expect a different result.
Sorry for being a downer, no motivating award here!
Thanks for bearing with me.