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Really struggling.

Monday, July 22, 2013

I'm really struggling the past few weeks. I mean reeeally struggling. I can't even explain it. It's becoming all-consuming at this point...just about every thought I have is to "get on with it." Why do we get so resistant to something we KNOW we need to do, and something we really WANT to do? I guess maybe I'm just so afraid/convinced that if I try "once more" it will be a failure just like every other time I've started over. I also know every time I start over, things get worse before they get better, I have to feel painful feelings that I've been squashing away with food and inactivity and part of me is just not ready to have those painful feelings resurface. Now, over the years, I've had plenty of setbacks and plenty of start-overs.....but I can NEVER remember feeling so resistant before. I want to do it, but something somewhere inside me is not cooperating at all.

Does anyone ever feel this way or is it just me?

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  • YMWONG22
    Maybe at some sub-conscious level, you are not fully ready to commit to the lifestyle change. I believe you are not alone in this.
    As long as you don't give up and keep trying, you are making positive changes no matter how small.
    A failure is not a total real failure until one succumb to it and don't give it another attempt.
    Wish you all the best and don't give up!!
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    1798 days ago

    oh honey, I know EXACTLY how you feel. If you take a look at my blog about the reasons I want to lose weight, I'm sure you will see yourself too.

    Here's the bottom line. You need to prove to yourself that you are worth the work, because YOU ARE.
    1798 days ago
    Everyone struggles at some point. After all, we would not be struggling with our weight if we didn't abuse food in some way or another. I agree with the response from Christa SP. but, I would also say that exercise can eventually help with some of those blah feelings. Maybe you can try to commit to just 10 minutes of fitness a day - if you do more, great, but if not, it is still establishing a pattern of exercise. Then maybe you could set a non food reward for the end of your streak. Example - exercise 10 min a day for 30 days and then treat yourself to a pedicure - whatever works for you. You can do this. The first steps are often the hardest. Take it one day at a time.
    1798 days ago
    1798 days ago
    I just wrote a reply to your other blog entry 'Starting over'.
    I think that if you see weight loss as an 'all or nothing' thing, it becomes much harder to start. Or to continue once you've started. Or, even harder, to pick yourself up after you started and then 'fell off the wagon'.
    So my guess is that it's important to just make small changes to your diet and exercise habits, not big ones, and to focus on creating new healthy habits rather than on losing weight. Easier said than done, I know. But in the long run the outcomes may be better than if you start a big campaign but lose hope half way, give up and go back to the old ways...

    If you feel you've been suppressing emotions by food, it may be important to look at these emotions, deal with them, release them, seek help, maybe therapy in order to handle those feelings. That may be more important than 'dieting'. Again, easier said than done, and I'm struggling with these same issues myself. Still... doesn't it make sense?

    Maybe you could just set an intention to eat mindfully for just this week, once a day? Chew and taste your food and see how you like it, try to enjoy it.
    1799 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/22/2013 3:50:54 AM
    i overrationalize my bad decisions. then when i get on the scale i am frustrted. i do mindlessly eat. i have been having some victories. but struggle with keeping momentum.
    1799 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    wish you a good week.
    1799 days ago
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