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6 Weeks of Accomplishment: BLC-22

Saturday, July 20, 2013

R - reflect on the previous 6 weeks - Be honest with yourself, what did you do well, and what could use some work. Post in a blog, or in the chat thread once over the weekend.

BLC 22 commenced early in June and I was battle-weary and worn-down from a nightly struggle with crackers. Yes, I won most days---but it was difficult. I felt deprived and I felt like a stock comic-figure--the fat lady who cannot say no to a cracker. In the meantime, my husband and my son are getting skinnier and skinnier and lament that no matter how much they eat, they cannot seem to stop losing weight.

I used to have lots of fantasies: Lost 10 pounds every time you stand in line. Take a magical ice-cream elixir and your waist emerges at 28 inches! The Magical Tofu Diet: Eat no tofu and the pounds will disappear. Burn 1000 calories an hour while reading. Burn 2000 calories an hour while sleeping. Binge and get a "reverse" calorie effect. Eat a pint of ice-cream and lose 5 pounds! Yes, my fantasy life was a bit laughable. Pathetic yet I understand why I had such magical thoughts: I did not believe I had the magic within me. Since I started becoming loyal to my Spark Program about two years ago, I've emerged from Fantasy Land. I made the connection: I OWN this weight.

This weight is mine. It is not the result of a malignant God. It is not the result of living with skinny men. It is not the Curse of the Spider Woman or the Ancient Egyptian Amulet buried under my house. Nor is it even the result of Ben and Jerry sitting in their Vermont farm-lands and cackling as they imagine me struggling under the burden of Cute Name Ice Cream. While there may be some genetic contributions, my parents were never overweight. Nor were aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents. Let's face it: the usual suspect is no other than me.

The first 6 weeks of BLC have been about continuing and improving on my well-established strength-training and cardio and walking. But most importantly they have been about breaking up with CARBS that are not fruits or veggies. I have to remind myself that however dense and somewhat caloric a banana might be, it does not raise my blood sugar the way a hard, slight cracker does. Nor does it send me on a feeding frenzy.

I have learned that no matter what else, a bite of white carb can derail me. I am powerless before a cracker. A grain of rice can make me lose control.

I feel upbeat and optimistic. When I don't eat carbs, I feel "normal" hunger and I do not feel cravings.

I am really committed to the BLC. It seems as if the weekly routine really imposes a very logical and comprehensive way to find health and to keep moving.

Cat picture inserted because it's almost obligatory and you see no carbs in his bowl!
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    Excess weight ISN'T the result of living with skinny men? Oh. Now you tell me. Well, dang. There goes my excuse.

    The picture of the cat is hilarious! And yes, you are right. You are now expected to come up with cat pictures. We will throw temper tantrums if you do not.
    1768 days ago
  • TREV1964
    I liked this blog - personally I do everything I can to avoid processed foods. I also try to eat little and often which keeps my metabolism up and my hunger pangs completely at bay.


    1769 days ago
  • 1SALMON1
    My experience so much agrees with yours. Refined foods and high glycemic stuff like white rice send me into a tailspin every time. I am glad you are feeling so well and getting good benefit from this challenge. You deserve to feel well and be well!
    1769 days ago
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    Actually, still emoticon

    This deserves to be a featured blog! Plus I adore the "cat sushi" comment. I'm sure it IS cat sushi. YUM!

    Excelsior! You will prevail! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1769 days ago
    emoticon That sounds much like my goals, to keep up with what I'm doing successfully at the moment. I also have that trouble with crackers, one is never enough! emoticon
    1770 days ago
  • POPSY190
    Love the moggy. The BLC does seem to have kept your motivation high. I'm on the mailing list but haven't joined yet, but from the sound of this I think I would like it.
    1770 days ago
    You should be proud of yourself!

    1770 days ago
    Be strong against the cracker!
    1770 days ago
  • MONIKA1948
    Great blog, Natalie! Made me emoticon emoticon
    1770 days ago
    Natalie, another BRILLIANT blog!! Life is a process and "By God I think she's got it!" emoticon
    1770 days ago
    Natalie, have I mentioned how much I love you?? I giggled and sighed along with you through this whole blog entry and kept finding myself wanting to read it out loud to someone. "Listen to this! This is totally true! 'I am powerless before a cracker.' Isn't she right??"

    Also, I *do* think you should dig up that amulet just in case... emoticon
    1770 days ago
    is that cat sushi? well in that case i'd prefer to be human.
    1770 days ago
    Sounds like you are doing great! emoticon

    I'm thinking about signing up for BLC-23. It sounds like a great challenge. I'm a little nervous about the time commitment though. If you have any pros/cons about the challenge, please let me know!
    1770 days ago
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