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Thursday, July 18, 2013

Well as the 24th gets closer and closer the more stressed I get (for those of you that read this and dont know already I will be going in for a follow up visit for a lump in my breast). I have just about made myself sick worrying over stuff this last 10 days. And so I tell my ex about what is going on and he acts all concerned and loving and now he is back to treating me like crap..........will I never learn????? And my oldest daughter did the freak on me last night........she went out and got drunk and was all wa wa wa what am I gonna do if I lose you? does a mother answer that? And on top of all of this one of the dogs is sick. Won't eat, throws up every he drinks something, is very lethargic, hasnt pooped in several days and the vet is too busy to see him and the oldest daughter wants me to fix it...................arrrgghhh
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I am sure you all will hear more of me venting over the next few days as things get closer so I will apologize now............ emoticon . And emoticon all for the support you have given me so far.
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    You vent all you want - it is important that you have an outlet for it all.
    I'm sure you have talked to your daughter about this in depth and her upset is understandable. No one wants to think of the potential of losing a parent or child. We have to try and stay as positive as we can and once the answers are on the table - take things forward in the best way. You're Dr has first hand experience and will be able to guide you in the right direction.
    I'll be thinking of you on Weds.
    1736 days ago
    I wish I could give you a big hug right now. I know how it is to deal with the breast cancer scare. Mine ended up being benign. But my aunt's wasn't. Take care of yourself. You are not alone. You are in my prayers.
    1739 days ago
    Oh dear! I'm so sorry for all the stressors. I really feel for you . . . the lump thing is bad enough . . . you don't really need the rest of the crap!

    I went thru the lump 'scare' last Fall. I got so pissed at the medical people because everybody's afraid to tell you anything (due to malpractice, I guess) . . and they keep you hanging on what seems to be forever. I was so pissed at my Dr (and I let him know about it) til he told me that if he gave me the 'all clear' and something turned up later, that (his exact words) " my @$$ is in a sling".

    Wishing you the best . . . will be waiting to hear.

    So glad you're not smoking!!!!!
    1739 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. The waiting will drive you crazy. I know. I had a lump in my armpit that was suspicious & I made myself very sick thinking of the worst possibilities. I had myself in a coffin before I even got a diagnosis. It turned out to be benign.
    May I suggest "trying" (I know easier said than done) just living like you did before you found this. Until you have a cancer diagnosis don't torture yourself mentally. If it is cancerous , then deal with the emotions, but if it isn't you've made yourself sick for no reason.
    Even if it is, it isn't a death warrant. The reason we test is to catch it early so we can beat it before it gets too bad. Try to focus on the good moments throughout your day.If you have faith lean on Him, if you don't I'm gonna pray for you.
    Best Wishes
    1739 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/18/2013 7:17:25 PM
    Good luck....You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
    1739 days ago
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