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I've been missing in action, but I'm back!

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Hello Sparkie friends,

I would like to thank all of you who have sent me messages and Spark goodies while I have been gone from Spark People. It has now been almost a year since I've been active on the site, and I have not been maintaining my weight loss.

After a series of injuries, I drifted away from Spark People because I gave up for a while. I was frustrated with injuries that put the brakes on my progress. At first, I tried to maintain a healthy diet to keep the weight off. It didn't work. Finally, I just quit trying. This is when I quit visiting Spark People. I couldn't bring myself to post a truthful update such as, "I ate pasta until there was no more." I also couldn't post a lie - that I was making healthy choices. So, I slunk away to eat pasta and cheese to my heart's content.

By the beginning of 2013, I knew I had to do something, or my body would pay the price with continued arthritic degeneration in my lower limbs. I resolved to incorporate regular exercise into my weeks, but didn't make the time to return to Spark People. I felt guilty for just disappearing. My crazy schedule kept me from truly regular exercise and I didn't have time to track food.

With the year more than half gone, despite my efforts, I have gained weight. Yes, I have continued to incorporate even small doses of exercise into my hectic life. I have tried to make healthy food choices, once in a while. I drink more water. I use whole foods when I can. Time is my enemy. When I come home at midnight and haven't had dinner, I grab whatever takes the least time. Since I have adjusted my shopping to accommodate this, I usually have chips or nuts and cheese laying around. NOT a healthy meal.

That said, I realize I need the encouragement and accountability I find with my Spark friends here. My life continues to be almost insanely hectic. I don't know how I will make time to visit SP regularly. But I want to find a way to make it work.

I am working two jobs right now to try to get enough money to stay in school this fall. I am also taking a step back to evaluate if the cost of my education to my life and health is to great to justify continuing it. The sacrifices I continue to make to pursue my education come at a cost that money can't buy: my health, my friends and quality of life.

So thank you, each and every one of you - who stayed the course and kept on Sparkin', who sent me goodies and messages and continued to reach out to me in my absence. I appreciate it more than you can know.

I can't promise that I'll be able to Spark daily, but I will be back as a regular Sparkie and maintain my commitment toward forging a new, healthier lifestyle.

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    Sorry you have had a rough year! I totally understand - I had a gain this year, lost a little, then been on a plateau. I am glad to see you back. Hugs.
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    1792 days ago
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    Glad you're back! :) You work harder than almost anyone I know, and I admire you for that!
    1796 days ago
    I drove by the Lakewood Heritage Park a few days ago and thought of you. So glad to see you back here, but I'm sorry it has been such a rough year! I pray that God will guide you as you seek wisdom and balance in your life! Please put your health at the top of your priority list! Without it, none of the other things matter! emoticon emoticon
    1797 days ago
    It so good to see you back here. Just take each day as it comes.
    1797 days ago
    Welcome back
    1797 days ago
    I am so glad you are back. I myself in the past have had a terrible attitude after suffering an injury. That is when I did my yo-yo dieting. It is so easy to spiral downward...I have so been there and done that many times. WELCOME BACK....this is where you need to be!

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    1797 days ago
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