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Ever have a REALLY bad week(s)???

Thursday, July 18, 2013

I can honestly say that this week has been VERY BAD for me. Nobody died, I guess that would make things really bad right?? But for me, it's been bad week upon week upon week for weeks.

My 24 year old son, he is an Iraq Vet. The journey after his return home and his departure from the military has been very trying. He became addicted to drugs and alcohol. He has gone off the edge over the past 2 years. He has mostly kept away from the family until 6 weeks ago he came home to "visit". That visit ended up with him being arrested for drinking and driving under the influence, which led to a hospitalization, which led to him being discharged to a shelter. We tried for the last 6 weeks to care for him but have been unsuccessful. Today we finally reached our breaking point and we took drastic measures. I took my son to the VA hospital and had him admitted to a long term unit for addicts. As they were searching him and his belongings, he was spewing hateful words in every direction, even mine. Here we are all trying to help him and he is lashing out. I feel like a failure as a mother. How did we get to this point?? How did we get to a point to where our own child is spewing hate, being self destructive, attempting to kill himself. What is the cost and why are we paying the price? What did I do wrong? What is the cost of freedom??

I have many questions right now and not enough answers. I'm just in a state of disbelief, shock and quite literally exhausted emotionally, physically and mentally.

Thanks for listening. I just needed to vent...

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    Dear Ladybug,
    I am so sorry to hear of all this turmoil in your life! You did the right thing though in getting your son into the hands of professionals. I hope you will seek some support for you and the rest of the family too.

    All you can do now is leave him to the professionals and look after yourself the best way you know how. emoticon
    1797 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    I hate to hear that you and your son are going through such a hard time right now Melissa. My heart goes out to you and your family. I hope that he can find the help he needs and that will bring peace to you and your family. I can't even imaging how hard it is and what you are going through but hang in there, you are loved.

    1799 days ago
    As a mother of four sons, I am crying for you! It would break my heart to see any one of them struggle like this. You did the right thing! He needed professional help. I hear Dr. Phil always saying to families going through the same thing as yours "Your way in over your head. Help has arrived." He is suffering from PTS. Dr. Phil has done many shows about returning soldiers who have drug and alcohol issues. There is hope and your family has taken the first step. Best wishes for a speedy recovery.
    1800 days ago
    I feel so badly for you! How difficult it must be to see your son in this condition.....Know that you did do the right thing....He needs.professional help right now.....He will thank you nod day for this intervention.. I have a close friend whose daughter became addicted to heroin in college.....My friend had her committed to a rehab. Two years ago...She is still clean, working, and engaged to be married....So, there is hope....She is so glad she went through the intervention,etc.....She was also a single mother.....(my friend) She had to borrow money to get her to a rehab.....I will pray for you and for success. Going to the AA. Meetings is a must, too.......Take care. emoticon emoticon
    1800 days ago
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