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Restarting with two more pounds but a determination like no other

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Wow... its been a wild two weeks. From my lowest, most terrifying moment to the exhilaration of knowing my children were safe... running between those hospital rooms to see their faces and feel their breath was so much like counting your babies toes and looking them over at birth.. yes.. all there... intact..

Safe. Alive. Breathing... A future.

Where do I want to be in that future? On the sidelines? Sick... overweight... tired... cranky?

No. I feel like I was given a second chance at life as much as they were. I am so determined to get fit and stay fit. For them. For me.

I am lucky, I know exactly what I need to do to get healthy. I won't ever make it on Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers, Vegetarianism made me gain weight, low fat makes me evil. It's simple. I can do this. I just have to remember that the future with my children is more important then stopping for that cheese pizza or building a big sandwich.

So I have to make a plan.

1) Stay with foods that fuel me, this is simple, lots of veggies, meat, good healthy oils and limited dairy. No grains. No chemicals. No low fat or lite anything.

2) Meal planning and preparation on the weekends. If I bake my chicken and make my huge salad. I don't slip up. I slip up when I get lazy or busy and let it slip.

3) Make "me" time. Simple. Commit to making the time to exercise to fuel myself. The time to read my bible to keep my faith strong. The small things, the bubble baths and good books that nurture my soul.

4) Family time. Right now, I am rethinking everything about my world. Do I want to do less foster care? Less hours at work? Different career path? Maybe homeschool? Maybe ... I don't know.... but I know that my family and I need each other now.

This isn't about weight loss for me... this is about a holistic complete mindset of change. I want to be involved and happy, healthy and complete for my family. They need me as much as I need them. This is a work in progress...
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  • MELJONES3478
    You truly are inspiring! Your career of helping other people in need, your choice to be a foster parent and love childeren who need it the most, the love that you have for your family, the love that you have for the Lord, truly inspirational. I am glad that I came across your blog, you have touched my soul. I pray that your family continues to heal and you continue to touch as many lives as possible, you are amazing.
    1766 days ago
    Isn't it funny how traumatic events change our priorities in our lives. You can do this, live each day at a time. Love and hold close everything that you love, especially yourself.
    1766 days ago
    Awesome attitude!! emoticon
    1769 days ago
    You are absolutely in the right place. Life events like that do make is reevaluate what we spend our time on. I've had these life scares, too, and they do put into REAL perspective that I had filled my days giving all of my time to strangers and people in need; and I spent NO time on me, or the ones really closest to me. Makes you readjust your priorities in your mind and then in your life. We're here for you. We've got your back on this. =)
    1769 days ago
    After an experience like that, you do tend to re-examine your priorities! You have a wonderful attitude! Good luck with all the decisions that you make! Pray about it and I'm sure you'll continue to be blessed! Take care of yourself!
    1771 days ago
    Great attitude. Make it work. I am so glad the children are ok!
    1771 days ago
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