Something that I have been thinking over and over in my head since I read it and it has really made me think and I thought I would pose the question to everyone else....
First off, most people know that I am not a regular follower of the traditional diet paradigm, in fact, I pretty much rebel against it. I know what dieting does and how it affects the body negatively. I know that eating 1200 calories (or even sometimes less) is not a sustainable and healthy way to maintain the body. It will force it into starvation mode, wreak havoc on metabolic functions and a whole host of other problems. I eat food. I eat lots of food. I eat food to regulate my body. I eat sometimes at 10pm if my stomach is growling. I have pretty much told the diet rules to eff off. I work out, too. Hard. Daily, six times a week and give my body a day to rest. It is no secret that I loooooove to workout. Okay, I digress, I am getting off topic, I will divert myself back.... I started following Amber Rogers and her Go Kaleo blog earlier this year. It spoke to me, the things she said. I admire her for what she does and the message she preaches. She is about as common sense as one can be with regards to fitness and nutrition, because I mean, let's face it, the industry is about as backward and screwed up as it can get. It is something that feeds on the insecurities and feelings of inadequacy of people who struggle. I read one of her blogs that she posted the other day about calling for a new paradigm gokaleo.com/2012/03/27/i
and at the end of her blog she posted something that has made me think over and over again, "healthy is the new skinny...". So here is my question to everyone:
If health was your ultimate goal, your end all be all goal, how would things change for you? If there were no numbers tied into your goal either a weight goal or a jeans size goal or a body fat % goal, how would it be different? How would you view things differently?
I have thought about this over and over and over in my head since I read it. It is kind of an abstract thought to consider being that we tie our goals into something that is tangible, we can see it, we KNOW when we reach it when we see that number. Seeking health, maybe not so much so.
I have kind of come up with the answer for myself and it has thrown me a bit. If healthy was MY ultimate goal, the thing that I was striving for over a number on the scale and a pants size, I WOULD BE AT GOAL right now. As I sit and type this, i would be sitting here at my goal. I have been striving for a particular number on the scale, I will admit it. It isn't a far out of reach number, at least I don't think it is. It is the number I had when I found out I was expecting. It was the number I maintained for four years after losing weight from my previous pregnancy. However, seeking this number has not been easy. Not at all. In fact these last two years has resulted in a lot of frustration. Chasing numbers.
I have felt that frustration starting to subside around the time I discovered Go Kaleo and her new paradigm. I am starting to see that this is all about more than just chasing numbers. When I signed up for the BLC and started the challenge six weeks ago, I had my goal in sight, I knew what I wanted, how I was going to get it and what I was going to do to get it. I was working back into a somewhat more restrictive mode (although my restrictive mode would probably be what most would consider a cheat day
) on a low day eating about 1800 calories. I have been doing the Turbo Fire program which is intense. I have since added back in ChaLEAN Extreme so I am lifting weights on top of intense cardio/intervals.
Fact of the matter is this: I can't stand being hungry. I hate it. The feeling of my stomach growling does not bode well with me. It makes me grumpy and irritable. Eating the food is where it is at. I can not go back into restriction, be it restricting calories or eating clean since I do view clean eating as restrictive (many will disagree with me on this one, few will agree -- whichever side of the fence you're on its cool. Not looking for validation, just simply stating my point). I NEED food. I need that fuel to sustain and keep my body going throughout insanely busy days keeping up with four very busy kids, fueling my workouts. I don't have the energy or the will to push through my workouts if I don't have that fuel to propel me. Sleep and lost of it. I used to be all about getting up at 5am to workout and I am finding that it doesn't work so well for me -- number one I don't have that energy provided by fuel (and eating directly before a workout doesn't work for me -- I get very nauseous) and the energy provided from a long night's sleep.
I have resumed my activity in the group started by Amber, Eating the Food for a Healthy Weight Loss and I have gotten some crazy reinforcement. I did mention my weight and everything that came back was a resounding, "that is a fantastic weight for your height!!!" when all I could think of is I am at the high end of my weight, yadda yadda yadda. The way I view things is changing.
If I am doing this for health, I am eating food. I am getting sleep. I am working out. I am at my goal.
Interesting thought. I would be curious what everyone else's thoughts are on this....