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Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Goooood morning sparkles. I'm getting really bad at this blogging thing, which is bizarre because I love to blog. I've had blog ideas circling my head, I just haven't wanted to take the time to sit down and type them out. I'm still kicking copious amounts of arse. I got to buy smaller sized work pants because my other ones were falling off. So these should last me for a few months until they start falling off too (no objections there). I'm still wanting to do the Color Run in December, so my dad said he will pay for my entry fee as my birthday present. Sweet! Ill start c25k in September, but I'm going to do it outdoors instead of in the gym. That way I will be used to outdoor terrain, because its very different from the treadmill surface. I'm determined to RUN that race, no walking! Hoping to be in the 170s by then, we will see how my body does in the months leading up to it.

I did do progress pictures and measurements along with my weigh in this past Monday. Then I made comparison collage pictures. These are really hard to share, so try not to laugh at me too much.

I see small differences here and there, but I'm not getting discouraged at all. I can FEEL my body changing. The weights I'm using for ST are getting lighter, so ill have to buy heavier ones soon. More challenging moves in Zumba are getting tackled with no modifications now. Hell, even my knee caps are becoming more bony. I'm loving it, and I'm not trying to rush it anymore. I'm just giving it all I have, because I know that in the end, it'll be worth it.

Now time for a sad moment.. I don't know if any of you watch Glee, but this past weekend, one of the main characters passed away... Cory Monteith. Now the deaths of actors don't usually bug me, but his has completely devastated me. Glee was the first show I ever really got hardcore into (yes, even before Doctor Who) and identified so much with. And he was always one of my favorites. He died of a lethal overdose.. Combination of heroin and alcohol. What makes the whole thing even more confusing and devastating is the fact that he had just finished voluntary rehab in April. He was doing amazing, he looked amazing, he was engaged to Lea.. And.. Then this happened. I spent the last 3 days crying about it. I don't want to believe that he's gone, I don't want to believe that he will never sing and dance again.. I don't want to believe that we will never again see his adorable little half smile.. That he will never get to marry the love of his life... Aggggh. It really is killing me. He was such a wonderful actor, he did so much to get where he was. He will be so very dearly missed.

Okay, now that I'm Really Teary eyed, I'm going to end this. I hope you all are doing wonderful.
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  • MARIANNE9855
    great job with your program-definitely seeing lots of progress. emoticon

    I really liked Cory on Glee- he was one of my favorites-Rachael not so much. Anyway now that I work with people with mental illness and substance abuse- I am much more aware of how difficult it is to stay clean- if he was just receiving substance abuse treatment and not working on mental health issues too- it is even more difficult. The life of a star really does not lend itself to recovery- there are always people willing to take advantage of your weakness.
    1722 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/4/2013 11:02:43 PM
    Woo hoo, you're doing so well! Bony knees, bring 'em on. Bigger weights, yay! Keep it up, you're so motivating!

    The Cory news was a pretty big deal here in Vancouver. So sad.
    1735 days ago
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    1735 days ago
    I definitely see changes. And don't you dare feel embarrassed. That is a GOOD body and a strong one. You can, and should, feel proud of it!!
    1735 days ago
    You're doing emoticon

    In the pictures, you can really see the difference around your hip area! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1738 days ago
    bony knees ftw!

    Glad you're progressing, it's a good way to be :)

    1739 days ago
    Great job keep up the work you will make 170 and that 5 k before you know it!
    1739 days ago
  • ANNETTE117
    Awesome progress. Keep it up.
    1739 days ago
    looking good!

    I have those same underwear that you are wearing in pic#1
    1739 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    You are kicking arse! You have a great plan that you are working hard on and sticking to! You will see the results you want to see if you keep that up and I know you will. Now if there were only a few people who could see the progress I see...oh wait, I see quite a few on here! Remember, wise (ish)!
    1739 days ago
  • MRSP90X
    emoticon Progress pics!
    1739 days ago
    There is definite progress in the pictures, and you're very brave to take those pics and share them. Congratulations.

    I'm sorry to hear about the Glee actor. Beating bad habits is really, really hard, and despite not knowing much about him or the show it hurts my heart when I hear people have lost their struggle.
    1739 days ago
    I see some amazing progress in those photos, you should be very proud of yourself!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1739 days ago
    Congrats and best of fortune on the run.

    Congrats on your progress.

    Sorry to hear about the death of the glee actor.

    "Okay, now that I'm Really Teary eyed, I'm going to end this. I hope you all are doing wonderful. "
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    1740 days ago
    great work!

    i am also devastated about Cory, and am totally into Glee. it's so sad, i can't even fathom why he continued to do heroin even after rehab. i guess you never really know what a person is going through. i just saw him in an episode of masterchef (who knows when it was taped), and he looked great.
    1740 days ago
    Looking fantastic girl!
    1740 days ago
  • JLR080500
    I can tell lots of progress in the pics. It's much harder to see yourself!


    1740 days ago
    I happened upon your blog today. You are doing a great job and I can see the changes that you've accomplished in only a couple of months!! Way to go!

    Unfortunately, a weight loss jorney takes time to see results (others may see it before you do) but you are still doing it and you are making progress!

    Keep your head high, be proud of what you have accomplished!

    I'm excited to see you are doing the Color Run! :) I want to do one as well...I've done several 5K but not the Color and I def wanna do it!
    1740 days ago
    I stumbled onto your blog. Great results...I can really see a difference. Glad you aren't trying to rush it..it helps when you start enjoying the exercising.

    About Corey...when you're recovering you can't surround yourself with your old ways, or put yourself in situations that involve the problem you have. I just hope he wasn't surrounding himself with bad friends because shame on them for not supporting someone trying to get better. It was his responsibility to keep himself on the straight and narrow but then again, positive influences are what he needed.
    1740 days ago
    Seeing lots of progress! Stay Strong and Focused!

    As for Mr. Monteith, his bad dancing and adorable smile will be missed.

    And I can't fight this feeling anymore. I've forgotten what I started fighting for. It's time to bring this ship into the shore And throw away the oars

    1740 days ago
    You are doing great!! your pictures say more than a thousand words for all the work you have done! Good for you!!!
    1740 days ago
    You are definitely kicking some serious butt!! you look awesome thus far (more is to come i'm sure!). all the little boney revelations are definitely keeping me going too hahah and the smaller clothes, pfft why not!

    1740 days ago
    You are doing so amazing! I'm so proud of you and so jealous that you have that wonderful little app that lets you do those collages...I'm still working on mine..blah!!

    I'm sorry you are sad about your actor..I feel so sorry for his friends and family. :(

    I'm having trouble with this blogging thing too..I want to write one so bad but like you said I dont feel like sitting down and doing it..oh well we are awesome anyways...

    Wuvs you!
    1740 days ago
    I see more than small differences! Way to go girl. You are doing so great, keep up the awesome work! My sister did a color run, she had so much fun!! You will love it!
    1740 days ago
    Great blog! You are certainly on your way to a healthier body. Your pictures say it all. emoticon emoticon on another note, sad how such a young talented person is taken by drugs. May he rest in peace!
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