Hmmm...I Really Am Changing
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Well, I took everyone's advice under account and thought about things yesterday. After I collected my emotions back in check like they were after Friday's decisions which actually left me feeling calm and happy and at peace for the first time in a very long time, I decided I'm tired of my family's BS. I really am. Now, I love my family with all my heart. But I can't take their drama anymore. It takes away all of my happiness that I finally managed to build for myself. After that realization, I decided that I was gonna call and talk to both of them. Well, actually, I was going to scold them for being childish and stupid and selfish. And I actually grew a pair and did just that. I called them both last night and literally scolded them like their mother quite frankly should have. She really should have told them to pull their heads out of their @$$es and grow up. But she's far too much of a pacifist to do that. So I did what's probably not the absolute best thing for me because I decided years ago to stop being theirs and their kids' parent like I spent most of my life doing and stepped in and scolded them like a mother. I told them point blank that if they didn't pull their heads out of their @$$es and grow up and stop the BS drama, I was going to get married in Vegas. Nobody would be allowed to come to the wedding. They said they'd talk to each other, so we shall see what happens. And I am very prepared to follow through on my threat. Like I said, I'm tired of their crap. It's affecting my life, my happiness, and I'm done with it. If I have to, I'll cut ties from them. Not the happiest decision, I know. I love my family. But I love being happy and peaceful more. I'm just a little surprised at myself. I actually stood up for myself for a change. And it's amazing. So, I guess time will tell the ending of this tale.