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WHy SHouldn't I Just Give Up?

Monday, July 15, 2013

Today's challenge for one of my teams is to blog and tell myself I am Boss.
I have been on this journey for five years. I have lost a lot of weight and gained some back. Many times I have wanted to just give up. But I am still here.
My mind will tell me this is just too hard - My answer is, life is hard, weighing 300 pounds is hard, being unable to be active is hard, feeling embarrassed by my size is hard, not being able to find cute clothes is hard. It may be hard, but it is worth it. I AM WORTH IT!
My mind tells me that even though I am exercising and eating right, I am not losing weight so just give up and quit - My answer is, I may not be losing weight, but I am stronger than I was five years ago. I have more endurance than I had. I no longer have excruciating back pain and can walk again. I can hike. I no longer get pneumonia and bronchitis several times a year. I am enjoying life again. My sleep apnea has improved.
My mind tells me I am depressed and stressed, so just give up - my answer is I find ways to distract myself. I take photos. I see a counsellor. I am active here on SP. I have made friends at the gym. I am not focusing on the stress.
My mind tells me even though I am eating right, I am not losing weight so give up- My answer is, I am being good to my body by not eating junk, not over-eating and eating fresh food. I am seeing a Health and Wellness nutritionist to help me tweak my lifestyle. I am feeling so much better than when I ate poorly. I do not eat fast food, sugar or processed foods. My body thanks me every day.
My mind tells me that I am overweight and my BMI is too high, so just give up - My answer is, that I weigh a lot less than I used to and my body fat percent is lower than most people at my weight.
My mind tells me I am not worth it, so give up - My answer is I have to do some things just for me and this is one of them. I spent many years thinking of only others - my husband and kids especially. Now it is time for me. I am important too.
My mind tells me, you have made a bad choice today, so just give up - My answer is, one bad choice is no excuse to continue down the wrong path. I will pick myself up and get back on track right now. One slip up is no reason to give up the course.
My mind tells me it has been five years, I will never reach my goal weight, so just give up - My answer is, even if I never reach my goal, at least I have given it my best effort. I feel proud of the progress I have made. I am proud of the choices I make every day. I have come to enjoy exercise. I enjoy the foods I now eat. My health is better. I am able to enjoy life with my husband, kids and grand kid. I am strong enough to say no to foods I know are not good for me.
Sometimes this journey is a real mind game. We have to have answers ready when our minds want to drag us down. It is good to write this down because I can now refer back to this blog when my mind is trying to take over and remind myself that I am BOSS!
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    Excellent blog. This is something I am adapting for my own use. Thank you.
    112 days ago
    Wonderful blog, Ruthie! And so full of healthy, wonderful empowerment!!
    You and this incredible journey of yours is indee motivation personified!
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    1706 days ago
    Awesome! Awesome! Awesome!

    You are sooo right! I believe this journey and fight are definitely mental challenges!!! That is the toughest part.

    You are amazing and doing a wonderful job! As you said, you ARE worth IT and have already saved your life. Great Blog SparkFriend!!!
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  • TREV1964
    Hi Ruthie,

    I am going to tell you something which I hope will help. At the 1st of March this year I to my horror found that I was just a fraction under 360 pounds. The weight had been going on at between fifteen and twenty pounds per year through eating just one slice of bread more than my metabolism burn off each day. Admittedly today I stand at 280lbs.

    Now you are maintaining your body weight which is a whole lot better than putting it on.

    Looking at your diet is it possible to cut out just one slice of bread or the calorific equivalent? (around 100 calories) If you could you will surely loose the weight at the rate I was gaining it - at a pound every two to three weeks. If you are maintaining your weight your balance of intake v burn up is balanced and equal. Now anything you can do to get the calories below the metabolism will result in getting rid of any remainder you want to get rid of.

    Your mind might say to give up but like you say and I say you can do this because you are so very close to doing it already.

    Hold in there and make it happen


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  • HOT_MAMA624
    Wonderful blog! I really enjoyed reading it. The progress you have made is incredible! I know just how hard it was for you to get your sleep apnea under control, what with all the problems from the company. To have your apnea be better because your health is better is HUGE!!!
    Keep on swimming, Ruthiebear, and you will continue to succeed!
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    What a great blog, Ruthie! You are so inspiring to me!
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    All so true. So many positive changes for better health. Eventually the results will be evident on the scale too. Keep it up. I think going on with the momentum is the key for me that finally shows some results.
    1738 days ago
    Ruthie, great blog and very inspiring! Thanks for sharing!
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    1739 days ago
    This is a wonderful blog and it says a lot that most of us need to hear a little more often. Thanks
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  • ANNMACP0212
    You are soooo worth it!!
    1739 days ago
    Amazing blog. You are worth it. Thank you for sharing this powerful blog. emoticon
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    Great blog! Very motivational! emoticon
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  • LINDA!
    I have also had these negative thoughts. Good for you for working through your negativity and onto the positive person you are now. You are awesome.

    Really love this blog.

    1739 days ago
    Indeed you are worth every effort you make or have made. The positive healthy changes you have made are lifestyle changes, not here today gone tomorrow choices. You are beautiful inside and out.

    You are a powerful person. The healthy you won this debate! Keep up the inspirational blogging. emoticon
    1739 days ago
    Great talk go girl. Tell that mind who is boss and never, ever give up.
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  • BARBIE176
    emoticon blog. Someone shared a link with me to this blog and I can't begin to thank them enough. Thank you for writing such an emoticon blog and sharing it with others. I can so relate to everything you've said in it. Stay focused, emoticon because emoticon and you ARE WORTH IT! emoticon emoticon
    1739 days ago
    Wonderful blog! You are doing all the right things. Keep going!
    1739 days ago
    Reading your blog couldn't have come at a better time! It was like you were in my own head when you wrote this, Ruthie. Thanks so much for sharing!
    1739 days ago
    Awesome blog!
    Thank you for sharing all that. I completely relate to every word.
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    Hi Ruthiebear...This is one of the best writings I have stumbled upon on this site and I want to let you know that everything you said is true for me too and that I always do battle in my head too. But it is a passage of my life that I have finally embraced at my age of 56 and feel has brought me to where I am more comfortable with who I am and who I want to be when I grow up!! I relish in knowing I am going to be stronger and healthier than people who have never struggled like I have. I am going to be a leader and show others how to do it and support them on their way if they choose to take this path with the rest of us that have been doing it off and on for a lifetime. You are a success and you have spoken the complete truth of your inner most conflicts. Everyone on this site should read your blog!! Here's to a wonderfully bright and fulfilling road ahead to you!! Robin emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1739 days ago
    You are WORTH It! You will reach your Goals! You inspire each of us here everyday!
    I am so lucky that you have chosen me to share your journey. I am so proud of you and the progress that you have made! You are one AMAZING WOMAN!
    1739 days ago
    You can do it! Just keep on keeping on, and taking all those wonderful positive steps you are doing. WTG and yay!

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  • AMY-MIMI77
    Right on Ruthie - each day you continue to amaze me!
    You are so worth it all and should NEVER give up!

    1739 days ago
    I love your answers and we can talk our way out of or into anything if we let our strength overpower it. It sounds like you are on the right track! emoticon to you!! emoticon
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    This was a great blog... very reflective! YES... you are the boss and you are doing emoticon !

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    Applauding! What a wonderful and fortuitous challenge for you to have today. Serendipitous for so many of us! THANK YOU! Sharing this one forward....Life is hard but the alternative isn't easy for anyone either. Keep on keeping on!
    1739 days ago
    Life IS hard. WE have to learn to choose our hard! And stick to it! HUGS to you for persevering and accomplishing so much. You're an inspiration.
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    Yes, you ARE worth it!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • GLORYB83
    Excellent blog Ruthie! And kudos to you for not letting your mind dictate how you feel and what you do!
    Minds are powerful but you KNOW you've gained a lot of positives in the past 5 years, so never let that mind get to you!
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    1739 days ago
    Your mind is a powerful thing, the best thing you can do for yourself is to listen to yourself. Great blog emoticon
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  • ASTRA58
    We are the BOSS of us. It's true that we need reminding of that constantly. Thanks for those words today!

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  • AUNTB63
    This is a very inspiring blog...thanks for sharing your thoughts. Keep moving forward from where you are at and you will succeed. Your attitude is awesome and YOU are so worth the effort it takes on this journey to a healthier lifestyle. emoticon
    1739 days ago
    Ruthie.. Thank you for this post today. I have been off track for the last year since leaving PA. I know I need to get back on track but just have not been able get it back together. Thank you for your inspiring post. I will use it to get myself on track and know that I can do it. Have a Blessed Day. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    It's been a great 5 years and wishing you many more.
    1739 days ago
    Thank you for this blog, Ruthie. You are such an inspiration.
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  • 1935MARY
    You have inspired me. I have been off track for awhile, because I haven't lost any weight and what I have has been very slow, and I almost threw my hands up and quit. Even though I haven't completely quit .I wasn't completely doing it either. I let everything lead me away from the one thing I know is working for me. Even if I don't lose a pound this month ,it helps improve my health. You see for six months I had got my sugars down from 8.8 to 7.5 and my cholesterol was perfect. The other day when I went to the doctor sugar was 8.4 and cholesterol up. I told her I had been off track and she said she knew I would get back on track. She said Carol I am so proud of your weight loss 7lbs in 6months. I guess I have no reason to not be happy with it. And like you I have always put everyone before me. Now my health is more important than little time consuming things everyone wants from me. Some of the things they can do thierself . thank you so much for your blog . I needed to hear this from someone else and know I am not the only one. Have a great week. emoticon
    1739 days ago
    GREAT blog Boss! Your strength and determination inspire me, Thanks!
    1739 days ago
    I am grateful to your SP team that challenged you to blog today. Wow! I got so much out of reading your blog. My mind does the same thing as yours. . . this happened, that happened - so just quit! You're not worth it! I hear that voice in my head 1000 times a day. But, I am learning to ignore it. . . and it's getting better. Reading your blog this morning just emphasized the importance of continuing on this journey - regardless of what the voice inside my head says! Thank you, thank you, thank you for sparking me this morning!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1739 days ago
    Ruthie, I saw a lot of myself in your blog. I am BOSS too, and because of your blog I will keep pushing today!
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