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Friday, July 12, 2013

Time does fly! I just noticed my last blog was in March, and I can't believe how much time has gone by. I was in a hiatus during this time, not sure if I am going or coming, so confusing! While I have managed to stay in my current weight and not gain anything, thank God, I haven't really lost anything either :( All my fault of course, I lost track of pretty much everything, got bored of everything and just stopped trying. I realized I wanted to do so much all at the same time and just got pretty burnt out, plus factor in the many times I've gotten sick, the discouragement of seeing my sisters loose weight with weight loss programs while I stick to the natural way, my mother still not wanting to do anything to improve her health, and my loneliness. Again, I keep putting every ones needs ahead of mine, and i can't seem to stop doing that!

Anyways... time to snap out of it and refocus. I am doing this for me and no one else, I am doing it the healthy way, I already have so many unhealthy habits and adding diet pills and starving are not an option for me. I can't save my mom if she doesn't want to be saved, all I can do is keep giving her advice even if it goes into deaf ears. And I can hope and wish that my sisters keep doing what they are doing for health reasons too not just vanity. Thats really their problems not mine, I need to stop carrying their weight on mine and start working on fixing my own life. So... here I am, doing just that.

In march i was doing so many things, tennis, zumba, kickboxing, walking in the park with an occasional jog in there, running up and down stairs, no wonder i over whelmed my self. Now I am doing the treadmill and cross trainer, zumba and next week I am starting to workout with my buddy again, hopefully do some ST. I need to start watching what i am eating, ever since I got into this funk I found excuses to eat an extra slice of this, one more donut, soda once in a while, my excuses where endless, well that has to stop!

Today I am recommitting to eating healthier, exercising to be stress free and not stress myself even more, and also checking in to SP at least three times a week. I am recommitting to myself!
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    Giving advice will always go to deaf ears.

    Why do I say that?

    I myself hate receiving advice, when all I want is someone to talk to. Not to fix my problems. I also ask for advice when I want it.

    So, I'm pretty sure, you're Mom doesn't want you advice. I'm sure she is getting it from her doctor, friends, family, etc. STOP!

    If anything. Just tell her how you feel. How you feel when she says something that really tics you off. How you feel about how she is not taking care of herself. It just sounds like she's depressed and there is nothing a person can do, unless they are willing to do something about it.

    I noticed that you weren't around for a while. I figured you were busy. I thought maybe you were at least checking in once and a while (like me).

    I'm so glad you're back and at it again. I hope to see you blogging more often. Even if it's short.

    Just get more active and kudos for not gaining anymore weight!

    I have to get going.
    1747 days ago
    Good for you looking forward and not looking back! Starting out small has really helped me this time around, so I hope that works for you too! Best wishes!
    1747 days ago
  • EG8383
    It's is scary to see that we're half way through 2013. I think you will be more successful now that you've broken you're commitments to something more doable. Face it you have to work, chores to do, and you have to get rest so you can't burn yourself out and stress about I need to work out...I NEED TO WORK OUT....IIIIIII NNNNNEEEDDD TTOOO WWWOORRRKKK OOOOOOUTTTTTT!!!!!!! Let's be happy about what we ARE doing =)
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