Pin-pointing my downfalls & setting goals

Friday, July 12, 2013

I joined this site a few years ago, but just couldn’t get into it. In early June I attended a wedding and when I saw the pictures, I was truly disgusted and decided immediate action must be taken.

A couple of years ago I had gotten up to this weight during a miserable relationship with someone who ate constantly and mostly crap. Once we broke up I lost about 45 pounds and was feeling better than ever. But then I got an office job (as opposed to the bartending job I had where I was on my feet all day long). I expected the change in activity at work to cause a bit of weight but I’ve gained all the weight back and more. I just don’t understand how this is happening so I have once again started using the tools on this site in hopes of eliminating mindless eating and force myself to take responsibility on a daily basis for food and exercise.

Here are the facts:
• since I don't work with food anymore I feel I’m less likely to snack all day. I THOUGHT this job would at least be a good way to regulate what I eat.
• due to budget restrictions, I bring my lunch almost every day (unless my department has a lunch meeting)
• Most days I would bring a small snack and either soup or a microwavable pasta for lunch.
• Drink wise, I drink about 4-5 litres of water at work ( I LOVE water)
• I’ve never been a big fan of pop so nothing to eliminate there -when I need something sweet I usually use the low-cal drink mixes (mostly cause they taste good and come in single serving packs)
• The office parking lot is about and 8 minute walk from our building and I tend to walk briskly out of habit.

Sounds healthy enough to me, but obviously it is not working – AT ALL.

Here is where I think I am going wrong (and will try to rectify) –
• I don’t eat breakfast so by the time I realise I am hungry I am STARVING and eat way too fast
• My fiancé is 6’4 and eats constantly and I need to remind myself not to eat just because he is or not to try to eat the same amount as him
• My fiancé’s family is Italian so they feed us non-stop when we visit
• When we are out and about on weekends, we end up eating take-out
• I don’t go grocery shopping so I eat foods based on convenience rather than nutritional value
• I drive over an hour each way to work and when I get home the first thing I want to do is sit down on the couch and eat
• When watching tv, I can smash back a whole box of cookies without even realizing it
• ‘Just one’ always turns into more, or ‘just one’ of too many things
• When I get home I’m super hungry and my blood sugar is low so I probably eat more than I should
• I have massive bowls and plates so portion sizes end up larger than they should – ie cereal

All that being said, I have made myself a few goals:
1. Do something other than sit on the couch when I get home
2. Wake up early every morning and do 15 mins on the Treadclimber
3. Track my food/ exercise each day

I was re-reading the Spark Diet last night and it really put things in perspective. I can’t go gung-ho and expect to shed the pounds instantly. It took a while to pack on the weight, it will take a while to get it off. I need to focus on small daily goals in order to reach my big goal of getting to 145 lbs. Its only been 3 days, but I feel pretty good. By waking up early and working out I have more energy later. And by not sitting in front of the tv from thr time I get home til the time I go to bed makes a huge difference mentally and physically - instead I cook or clean. The cleaning makes me feel less stressed out cause its not as overwhelming in small chunks (sounds like the Spark Diet philosophy!), and the cooking helps me to choose better foods rather than eating convenient but bad foods. By not sitting in front of the tv, my night doesn’t seem as short or as wasted and I can eliminate mindless eating. Win, win, win all around.

This morning was really hard to get up, but I was really proud of myself once I did. I sat up for about 10 minutes fighting the urge to go back to sleep. I’m a little afraid that I won’t be so strong in a few days but one day at a time right?
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  • LADYJ6942
    Welcome back, lol and good luck on your journey. Small steps equal progress and that's what its about. Keep pushing, you are doing great and can do it.
    2107 days ago
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