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Wednesday, July 10, 2013

I've got a lot to say. Luckily, half the crap that I spew is just rolling around inside my head, but it is there just the same. After my workout tonight, the kind where I am sitting by my locker, but unable to open the lock yet because my hands and arms are still shaking from the work, I spy a cutesy young possibly twenty something, possibly not even, adjusting her pant leg. and readjusting her pant leg. Up over the knee. Down below. Even with other leg. Up over the knee. Down below. Over and over and over again.

I'll admit it right here. It is the green eyed monster. Adjusting your pant leg? Really little Ms. Sassy Pants? Just get the heck out of here and head to zumba class. Seriously. I, on the other hand, was trying to figure out a way that I could adjust my little too long pant leg because it was stuck in my sneaker. Felt like I was wearing stirrup pants until I was able to yank it out from under my heel. A far cry from the mirror antics I just witnessed.

I judge - to myself - I refrain from even blurting this out to another less than godly perfect body in the room. Go me. My day in the sun will come. I will unlikely look like the decades prior young Chiquita I was eyeballing today, but I will be a better me. Every day I am improving SOMETHING whether it is my confidence, my VO2 capacity, my pants not sticking to me like a second skin. Every day I fight the battle, and get my butt to the gym, I am improving something. I am making changes. I can't use the mirror goddess to reflect my progress though it is tempting sometimes.

So for today, I might have something to say on the inside, but it is not about you. It is about me. And I am doing it.

Here is my post gym face after I have managed to get back to my car in one piece. :)

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    emoticon the photo, Mar! That is the Spark look, all riiiiight! You should use it as your profile shot.
    You WILL get there. So proud of you! You inspire me -- and yeah, I got your back. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1739 days ago
    Thanks Mar. I too hate those little girlies at the gym. Fortunately my gym has plenty of "me's" there too. emoticon
    1741 days ago
    You're doing great - you'll get there. Try not to judge the woman fussing over her pants legs. She may have been where you are several years ago and has earned that self-indulgent fussing. You never know.

    You're an inspiration - emoticon
    1742 days ago
    Love that smile! Proud, happy, and maybe a touch self-satisfied. You deserve it!
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    1743 days ago
    This post made me laugh out loud when you talked about the pant legs. We are really on a journey and sometimes it's good to laugh. I'm happy you made it to the gym for your work out. Oh, and thanks for the gift. emoticon
    1743 days ago
  • CAROL_31649731
    Wonderfully motivational blog. You have such a positive attitude! I wish I did . . . I will take a page from your book & focus on the things I have the ability to change. You are very inspiring. emoticon
    1743 days ago
    You are so inspiring, it's ridiculous (in a good way)! I absolutely love that you can turn just about anything into motivation!
    1743 days ago
    You will get there you are amazing. I love your self esteem can I get a transfusion?
    1743 days ago
    I am sooooo proud of you!
    1743 days ago
    We start from where we are.
    We have no other choice.

    Envy can lead us to shame which can drive us right back into our 'comfort zone' of feeling like the good life is not for us, we don't deserve it. I know. I have run back there several times.

    I love that you have a handle on yours. You are boldly honest with yourself and with us. She may have been cute in her little reflection, but she does not have the spirit, compassion or wisdom that you have. I know this because it only comes with life experiences which she could not possibly of had to deal with yet. Lucky her. She looked perfect on the outside, but you are perfect on the inside.

    You can't buy grace, you can only earn it through His love. He has graced you with a body and mind that are strong enough to fight back in spite of all you have been through. God clearly has a plan for you. He too is waiting for this time next year.
    He doesn't care what length you wear your pants!

    Let's show Him what we got.
    1743 days ago
    You've got that right Mick!! Yes in deed you are improving every day, every time you work for your fitness. I am so proud of your hard work. Keep up with your good work.
    Loved the picture. It made me smile to see your pic. Thanks for sharing my dear.
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    1744 days ago
    You look like you achieved something. Congrats and keep going.
    1744 days ago
  • TONYAB2000
    You can do it! You have a great attitude. I mean, everyone has their grumbles and their disappointments and I feel the green eyed monster too, but its' great that you can turn those irritations into motivations. That leads to progress. You are on your way. emoticon
    1744 days ago
    I understand how you feel. emoticon
    1744 days ago
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