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Getting my Tough back.

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

I know I am so much tougher that I think I am. I keep feeling like I’m going to break, I’m stressing beyond belief, and then a day like today happens and I get my back up. I feel tough and strong. And if people don’t stop messing with me they are going to find out how I earn the title of b!&c#.

I know I will find another job and when I do . . . tootles! Friday is hubby's surgery and then that will be over. We even got through the last thunderstorm with NO LEAKS in the roof. I think we've got it for now.

Now I’ve been giving in to the stress. My foot hurts and I’m sitting on my ham hocks. This is no more acceptable than all the eating I was doing last week. I’ve gotten my food under control (at least mostly under control).

Now to get back to exercising! I have to admit, not being on Top for Cardio minutes, not even making the top five in my Club Canine did NOT feel good. Guess I've still got a competitive streak alive and well.

I’m thinking about focusing on ST. I’ve never been consistent with it or very good at it. I just think a new focus might be helpful. Also, some ST will help with my boxing. I enjoy punching the bag. It really is better stress relief than anything else – even running. Hubby has even given me the ok to get a speed bag for the Kung Fu area of the house. I’m not certain if I should be spending the money on this kind of stuff. That is the only reason I didn’t come home with a stand and bag over the weekend.

Well I have a puppy to train tonight. Nothing like puppy breath to brighten my mood! I wish training brought in enough money to be my full time job. That would be cloud 9 for me.

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    Good going on getting your 'tough' on. We all seem to have it when we have to dip on down deep to find it. I wish you could do your doggie thing full time too! How about doggie day care? They have them EVERY where down here in FL. A VERY lucrative biz...but then crazy Floridians will pay for most ANY thing! emoticon
    1774 days ago
    emoticon I know what you are going through(almost) My mom is having a surgery soon too.
    1778 days ago
    It's Friday here in Australia, so I'm wishing your hubby well on this surgery!!!! Hugs to you!!
    1779 days ago
    Hang in Spark Friend, there will be sunshine soon!
    1779 days ago
    Boxing is awesome isn't emoticon
    1779 days ago
    Keep fightin! You can do it!
    I hate the little setbacks that we have once in a while but I guess it is all part of the experience. Keeps us on our toes. Kinda funny in a way, I think sometimes we are too hard on ourselves and try to do this perfectly. Right now my exercise is great but my eating leaves a little to be desired. I feel like a lowdown POS but I have to stop and give myself some credit for how far I have come and what I am doing about it today.
    Not every day is going to be good I guess. As long as we keep coming here for our reminders and remember what our goals are in the longrun, we will get there. Always gonna be a battle over the fat!
    1779 days ago
    Puppies make everything better. I don't know how, they just do. Have fun training! emoticon
    1779 days ago
    Oh, I wish training could be your full time job too! I also wish I could bring Sassy to you! Friday will be Hubby's surgery? I was thinking it was going to be on the 15th! I'll be on the road, but I will keep you and him both in my positive thought bank! Sorry, but I'm a little iffy with that prayer thing. Go grab your tough by the you know whats and kick stress's ass! I know you can!
    1780 days ago
    Some days we're tough. Some days we're fragile. Both are good. It's what makes us human.

    I wish you could make it work on the training. That would be so cool.
    1780 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    I second looking for a second-hand speed bag... maybe a personal trainer or gym might offer some ideas on where you could acquire one.

    1780 days ago
    you can do this! Don't let the stress hurt you like that, you deserve better!
    1780 days ago
    Hang in there, hun! Things will get better! Hopefully, your stress level will decrease after the hubby's surgery.

    Try and focus that energy into your workouts. Punching bags, walking the pups, playing with the new baby hopefully will help.

    Know that I am "in your corner" as is many others here. Prayers are coming! Big emoticon
    1780 days ago
    you are stronger that you give yourself credit for.... hang in there.
    1780 days ago
    You are stronger than you know! I know you will come thru this wave like a surfer hanging ten!
    1780 days ago
    I control my weight much better with strength training than by trying to stare food down. You can do it!
    1780 days ago
    I love ST. I didn't at first -- it had to grow on me, but I like my little girl guns. emoticon
    1780 days ago
    emoticon emoticon . Love that you are finding your inner strength ... I know you can do this .. We can do this Together ... Hugs Susie. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1780 days ago
    Never doubt who you are . . you are tough . . or you would not be here!

    “Promise me you'll always remember that you're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.”

    Cristopher Robin to Winnie the Pooh

    1780 days ago
    Well, I'm glad you have that tough side to you but I'm sorry you have to show that side to you right now. I'm glad you will not and do not let people walk on top of you. You are beginning to sound like your normal self though which is good. It sucks that you have to look for a new job because of office politics. I really wish your dog training business was enough to support you. Hopefully, it will someday. Just out of curiosity, I[m sure you have but I'm going to ask anyway...have you put up fliers to advertise your business?

    Have you tried getting a stand and bag from some place that resells used exercise equipment or tried craigslist? ST would be a great way to get your exercise in while your foot heals.

    I hope that your puppy training tonight helped to brighten your mood!

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    1780 days ago
    I told hubby I need a punching bag. I think it would be very therapeutic :). As for puppies you should head my way and train my little toot. He's such a sweetie :)
    1780 days ago
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    1780 days ago
    I am inconsistent with ST too, though I know I need to do it. Glad you got the food under control. Now you just have to get moving again!
    1780 days ago
    Keep up the good attitude! I know nothing makes you feel better than punching something...I really miss my kickboxing bootcamp class.
    1780 days ago
    So when the going gets tough ...

    You will get through all this and come out the other side stronger than ever.

    1780 days ago
    You'll get there one of these days! And ST might be a great way to get fitness in and still give your foot a break!
    1780 days ago
    Glad to hear you have your zip back again!

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    1780 days ago
    Good to hear you've got your fight back on... hang in there honey.
    1781 days ago
    Sounds more like you. So Glad. emoticon

    Paint faces on your punching bag, that may help with some of the stress. emoticon

    You will be back on top soon. You are a winner. emoticon
    1781 days ago
    I think the light at the end of the tunnel is glimmering! I know you and life are going to bounce back soon!

    I hope you had fun with the puppy tonight.
    1781 days ago
    Glad you are feeling like a fighter again!! You can do this!!

    1781 days ago
    You do sound better. Go tear up that bag girl!
    Punch it's lights out . . . but don't hurt yourself.

    Everything happens for a reason.
    We usually know the reason - and probably wouldn't understand or agree if we did. But it will make you a stronger person . . . probably in more ways that you know.
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    1781 days ago
    I'm glad things are going better! Praying everything works out well. You are such an inspiration! emoticon
    1781 days ago
    Everyone deserves to do the work they love, and it's too bad the world doesn't always cooperate with that. You sound better, Kitty, which is good. I love ST, maybe because with my disability I can do it more easily than cardio. Give it a try. I've seen results....I know I'm stronger. Hugs. --Lou
    1781 days ago
    Sounds like you got in under control!
    Bring on your inner Super Woman!
    1781 days ago
    Awww, puppy licks and tail wage are just what one needs to brighten the mood! Glad there's not too much more waiting for DH's surgery.

    HUGS and smiles. Hang in there, honey.
    1781 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    I know you have that inner tough girl in you. I'm sorry she has to come out and play, but I'm glad she's got your back. You will find another job, and it will be a better one. I wish for your sake that you could make a complete living with dogs too.

    Can you find a used bag and stand? Something that will cost you less but that will get you through until money loosens up a bit for you guys?

    You and your hubby are still in my thoughts at prayers.
    1781 days ago
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