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I've lost 150+ pounds...

Monday, July 08, 2013

and I still feel like I'm 330+pounds.

I know how to lose the weight. I've done it. So why is maintaining 50THOUSAND times harder?! I've seen every number in the 180's probably 50 times now... I just can't seem to break past that 181. And now, its back up to 185 and climbing and I feel like I'm failing, fast.

Summer is hard. I have never, ever had this much fun in the summer. I'm finally starting to come into my own and be comfortable with myself. I'm wearing cuter clothes, actually caring about my appearance, and overall, trying to have a LOT of fun. Fun comes with consequences. The scale hasn't been normal for over a month now.

I know that I don't have to say "I'll start on Monday." Cause Mondays come and go. So I know I can say, "I'll start today". My month doesn't have to start on the first, it CAN start on the 8th. I need to stop making excuses and buckle down again.

I'm really focused lately on making the most out of life. You realize how short it is and how quickly it goes by, and I don't want to miss anything. But I also don't want to do it fat and miserable. Keeping in shape should be a bigger priority for me. Even though right now it already consumes a lot of my thoughts and time when I'm not working.

I need to focus. I need to remember where I was and how far I've come. I need to spend 20 extra minutes weight training. I just need to find that motivation again. Slippery bugger.
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  • SAMMIE761
    I wanted to just let you know that you are so inspiring for someone starting out. I hope to lose 150 lbs over time, and it doesn't seem so impossible seeing other people who have done it. Thanks!
    1698 days ago
  • TANYA602
    Hi hon,
    I'm checking in and slowly getting my feet back into the SP waters. I hear you about the summer fun part! Yes! Enjoy each day, remember how hard you've worked to get to the point that you feel so good about yourself and that you like feeling cute in those new, summery clothes. Don't let the fun derail you, though. And I truly think it will take us awhile to see ourselves in our new bodies the way others see us. Even as I sit her typing I feel like my thighs are just way too big for their own good today. But if that were indeed true, could I pull on the pair of shorts I wore last week? I know I am just catching up, but I want to encourage you to stay positive and stay on track. You are soooo worth it!
    1717 days ago
    I'm feeling you so hard right now! I was 165 for 1 freaking day! And now just a month later I'm 177. I wish I knew how to lose and maintain with stressing out! We'll get there!
    1727 days ago
    Simply phenomenal keep up the incredible work! You can do this!
    1740 days ago
    I would like to recommend spending the money and join spark coach Plateau Busting program it just might help. Good luck! And Congrats on the weight you have lost! WooHoo to you!
    1744 days ago
    Summer is hard, but you totally can do this! I'm so proud of you!!
    1745 days ago
    Amanda, just know that emoticon just right down what you said in this blog that you need to do and take it one thing at a time my friend. Don't get frustrated or side tracked for too long.

    Summer is my has been my hardest time too, but this year, I'm breaking the cycle.

    Let's emoticon and get it done!!!
    1745 days ago
    you can do this. I think we're always harder on ourselves in the summer anyway. You have accomplished so much already!! Don't let a few "vanity" pounds get you down. Its just a drop in the bucket compared to what you have already lost! :)
    1746 days ago
    You can do this. It sounds like you've nailed the hardest part - not procrastinating or making excuses. That's why you aren't going to gain the weight back - because you are aware and being proactive.
    1746 days ago
    I really like Jaime's first post about setting new or different goals! I started doing the Couch 2 5K, and I really like looking forward to each week's challenges. But even if you set a fitness or nutrition goal for a couple weeks it can bring back that spark of motivation for you regardless what the scale says. Additionally, I like to read people's success stories, motivational articles/quotes about why I am on my journey, and also my past posts or journal entries where I struggled and also had good days so I can relive those feelings and how I handled those situations. Last, I really believe in enjoying yourself while it is here. Celebrate with your friends and fun times, you said you are finally in place where you are feeling comfortable and want to do those do them! Who knows what life will be like 1 year from now or 1 month from now, so enjoy each moment.

    1748 days ago
    Now that you really don't have to focus on weight-related goals, how about setting some fitness goals for yourself and by achieving those, you will likely keep your weight in check. Sign up for a race or do a structured program like 30 Day Shred, Supreme 90 Day, PX90, etc.
    1748 days ago
    As you said- life is short and you need to make the most of it! Granted, life does seem to be more fun slimmer than it was obese. Just sayin. It *IS* is a slippery slope. BTDT.
    1748 days ago
    When this happened to me it was because I was so happy where I was that I stopped setting small goals like I had previously. There is a lot to be said for enjoying your current weight, feeling good about yourself and enjoying life but think about where you want to be in 4 months. 1 month? Try to give yourself a mental image of what that would look like and what it takes to get there. For what it's worth I am 181 right now, happy to race down with you :-)
    1748 days ago
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    1748 days ago
  • THOMS1
    I have been trying to break out of the 180's since Christmas when I really overindulged. That will never happen again if I can help it. Of course I shouldn't say that I am only human. All I can tell you is just keep tracking, measuring and weighing you nutrition and watch what kinds of foods you are eating. After all not all calories are created equal (as I well know). You may want to up up your exercise also and keep drinking that water. It all helps. I wish you luck. emoticon
    1749 days ago
    You're doing great, but be careful on that slippery slope. It's no fun backsliding, I know. Years ago, I heard something that has stuck with me. If the scale shows 3 lbs gained, you will keep one. So don't allow it to creep too high. You have accomplished a feat! You CAN KEEP IT! You inspire me!

    1749 days ago
    That is amazing and difficult all at once. We will consistently have a body that matches the effort we put into it. If we consistently put good foods and exercise into our bodies, they will reflect that.

    You've done that before and the scale moved down. Just remember that is who you are!
    1749 days ago
    Congrats first of all for your achievement. If you can lose 150+, you can maintain your weight. Keep Pushing and you can celebrate your maintenance anniversary in sparkpeople.
    1749 days ago
  • DIETER27
    One step at a time. You Can do it!
    1749 days ago
    I like how you said about I will start today. I need to say that to myself.
    1749 days ago
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