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Self evaluation

Saturday, July 06, 2013

I know that I read a quote before that said, " Doing the same thing and expecting different results is insane" or something like that. So why do I think that I can keep doing the same thing over and over again and see results. I do good for a few days, and then I lose my mind. It's like I get bored and don't know what to do with myself. To cover up, I won't track what I'm eating. And that's my problem- the eating. I will exercise, but I'm not good about being mindful about what I choose to eat. Today I decided no matter how good or bad the food choice is, it's going on my tracker. I need to hold myself accountable for my choices.

I looked in the mirror this morning and was happy about the way my back looks. I wasn't embarrassed to wear my romper. That's when I realized I need to put it all together (the eating and the exercise). I thought to myself how much better I would look (not that I don't look good now) if I was doing it right. I'm not beating myself up. I'm just being honest. I can't give 50% and expect full results. It just doesn't happen that way.

I read other members blogs and think, " WOW, I want those results!" The truth is I could probably have them if I really worked for them. What am I afraid of? Missing a piece of cake, a little sweat (ok, I was afraid of sweating lol), or maybe success. I know that sounds crazy, but maybe I am afraid of succeeding. Maybe I'm afraid of the effort it will take to succeed. I think that's it! I know this is going to take some real effort and determination, and it scares me. Can I do it? Will I make it? What if I fail? Those questions frighten me.

Well I don't know where I will end up, but I know that I am not ready to stop trying. As long as I feel that way I have a fighting chance. So today I logged the horrible food choices I made. I got busy on the site. I brought healthy food in to the house. And, I asked myself it I really want results. My answer is yes. Yes, I want a slimmer healthier me.
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