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Life has taken a turn for the worst for me.

Saturday, July 06, 2013

First, I'm getting a divorce. I got tired of waking up and finding my husband drunk. Second, my family are living in the duplex that we have a C.D. on. I don't want it so we all have to find somewhere else to live. To so easy to find a three bedroom apartment that would accept three cats. Forth and last, The most painful of all is this next week I have to take in my 14 yr. old cat and have her put down. The last one is the hardest on me. I raised my cat from a kitten and she has been my best friend. We've been through so much together. She's hiding, not touching her food, barely drinks, and is losing function of her bladder. She acts like she is in extreme pain and the look in her eyes tell me she is saying I love you and good-bye. The divorce is bad, but I'm having a harder time with having to put Joe-Leen down. My heart is breaking. When she isn't hiding I've been next to her side petting and talking to her.

It seems like it was only yesterday that she was leaping through the field to greet me from off the school bus. Or she woke up my biting my chin during a house fire. She was there with me through bad relationships, single life, and she always made herself apart of every family gathering. She would pick a chair at the table and sit on it and we would find another one for the person whose seat she took. She has been the one thing that has kept me going through the tougher times in my life. I'm dreading Monday with a passion. But I will be by her side the whole time like she has always been next to mine.

I'm doing my best to not become depressed, but it's not easy. I'm working on eat healthy, but then times come I feel like I just don't care.

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  • JEANNIE1238
    Thank you everyone for the support and kind words.

    1779 days ago
    So VERY sorry to hear about your kitty. It sounds like renal failure... lots of older cats go that way, and (unfortunately) many times they "go it alone," the disease finally overtaking them. Congrats to you on the difficult decision to help her out of her suffering. I heard a phrase one time that's always stuck with me: humane euthanasia is the last kind act we can perform for our beloved pets. It's selfless even in the face of great heartache, to give them release from the pain they're living in. Be with her for the love and comfort she's come to expect of you while she crosses that Rainbow Bridge. Grieve for her, but remember all the good times, and the times she was there for you when the whole world was not. I lost my angelkitty a couple years ago to the same or similar disease. I still miss him terribly, I hear his voice, I feel his sweet kitty kisses. But this is *my* pain; his is gone, and for that I am grateful.

    Love and condolences to you. I hope your life lightens up for you soon.
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    1780 days ago
    1780 days ago
    So much news! I am so sorry you are going through all of this. Having to put a furbaby down is always heart breaking. I will light a candle for you and send some strength and calm your way. Please do be gentle with yourself and keep us posted how you are doing!

    1780 days ago
    I'm so sorry to hear that things are going so badly for you. I hope it gets better soon. I know how you feel about your cat. I had to put my diabetic cat down a couple of years ago and it tore me apart. emoticon I'll light a candle for you and your cat when I go to Church.
    1780 days ago
    I am sorry to hear what you are going through. I can really relate to having to deal with your cat. We had a similiar situation about a month ago. Just take care of yourself and be kind to yourself. Remember that there is good and bad days and if you try the good can out number the bad. Hang in there.
    1780 days ago
    I'll be thinking of you & your courage to end your cat's suffering. She had a good life with you I know! Plus I know you'll make it through your difficult times~ emoticon
    1780 days ago
    My sympathies. emoticon

    I am sure that you will find the courage to deal with these trying times.
    1780 days ago
    Remember that if it never rained you wouldn't appreciate the sunshine. Take each day as it comes and make the best of it.

    Make Today the Greatest Day of Your Life!

    emoticon Until tomorrow!
    1780 days ago
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