Ugh. That is all.
Friday, July 05, 2013
Man, I want to buy an island and put a dome over it. I would invite all my loved ones and positive people I know, and we would live in a world free of all the bs. The negativity. The drama llamas. ;) It would be a community of people working together and supporting each other.
The last few days have been spent dealing with drama that I got roped into. Long story short, (which is all I am going to say because I REFUSE to let their negativity poison me a moment longer...) I apparently had friends...that were not true friends. HAD. I am letting go of it, and moving on with my life, continuing the course to a healthy, happy, active me.
Good news is that in spite of the last couple days, my eating has been pretty darn good. If anything it was on the low side. We won't know for sure what that means weight wise until Monday. I have kept to my strict "No Weigh Until Weigh In" pledge. It's been really nice not to have to worry about that. I was an obsessive weigher forever...lol, pretty much until this week, and not weighing at all has really took away the anxiety and pressure. I would weigh every time I went to the bathroom and be upset when the numbers would go up. It's gonna go up when you drink 200 oz of water a day! I knew this too! Still bothered me. Silly girl. Think I am going to keep this up a bit and see how it goes. Maybe only weigh once or twice a week. Not weighing before my WW Weigh In is kinda crazy, because I like to have an idea of where I am at least! I actually am feeling pretty good about this week.
I kept up my walking too. Instead of letting everything get to me I walked. I didn't turn to food. I turned to exercise. Huh??!!!?? :D I took out all of my stress on walking. I kick that walks ASS. I am going to refer to it as angry walking, I beat all my times, it was crazy, lol. I may not be able to control every aspect of my life, but I CAN control keeping to my plan, and for the FIRST time in my life I did. Very PROUD.
OHHHH!! AND GET THIS!!
I approached a guy who owns a gym here. He is semi-just starting out, and I sent him an email explaining what changes I have made and all about how committed I am to seeing this through. I am saving to buy a house, so I REALLY can't justify a gym membership right now. I suggested that he take me on as a personal project, and in exchange I will give him a testimonial, and before and after pictures. And I go meet him tomorrow. He wanted me to come tonight, but I have a homework deadline, and there is just NO way I could.
This is a Crossfit(?) type program. Not a gym with treadmills and TV's. This is a marine who I offered to let "bootcamp" me and I told him that I would do anything he says. I hope I don't die, lmao. This is clearly the craziest thing I have ever done! Really really hoping I don't end up like one of those weight loss show contestants throwing up half way through first workout. Can't wait!! I am SOOO excit-ified!!! (New word...but it is PERFECT!!) Equal parts excited and TERRIFIED!!
I will post tomorrow after I get home from the meeting!