not RED, WHITE but BLUE
Thursday, July 04, 2013
I really don't want to be a downer to anyone, and maybe that's part of my problem. It's a national holiday, I'm off work, and doing absolutely nothing. My excuse is, it's too hot to go anywhere. I don't drive much, because of my eyesight, and oh, I really don't have any close friends (that are nearby). My closet family is 3 hours away.
I'm a happy person when I'm at work or out doing errands, but I'm mostly a homebody. I think it all started when I started getting healthier back about 16 years ago. There were things I did back then that I wasn't proud of, but my friends were still into the partying, so I just stopped going to the parties. I was also, of course, self-conscious about my weight, and the fact that I didn't have a boyfriend (I was marries for 4 years).
I guess I just got into that mindset, that, I am content to be alone if I'm not at work. I have a decent job, but outside of that, I don't go anywhere or do anything. I love being with my family, but don't get to see them often.
Now I'm getting a handle on leading a healthier lifestyle, and am going out to exercise most days. I think I'm just not content anymore. How do I force myself to make friends, be social? I volunteered at the local library, for a book sale, and they've never contacted me again.
I am thankful I live in a country where I can voice my opinion; very thankful that I have a place to live, food to eat, and am in relatively good health. I celebrate the fact that I am free from harm, and that all my fellow Americans have the same rights (mostly).
Wow, this is a bit of a downer blog post! I am doing well with the SP program, maybe I need a mental health spark?!
Enjoy your holiday, as I have done, in my own way! Tomorrow is another day and I will move forward, not back!