Losing my Spark - Three Year Assessment
Tuesday, July 02, 2013
I had to buy the size 18s. Whether I wanted to or not my size 16s were splitting out on the thighs. Not very attractive. My weight is still going up. My doctor didn't even comment on it when I saw her yesterday to check in on my asthma. It is my own fault. I am making poor choices. I know this. I know I COULD do better, but I haven't been. I've been walking but I haven't been sleeping. I don't think this is going to change.
On the Spark front, my lovely friend who I've never met ASTORRES1 left me to take care of the Pioneer Valley team. I feel like I'm letting her down. After an initial burst of energy to try to revitalize the team I find I am the only one posting in the Daily chats on most days. I wonder if I should just close up the team and move on. JIALCO/Janine is doing okay with the Western Mass team, and of course we all have the popular Massachusetts team for our regional chit-chats. Even though Spark has members in our Pioneer Valley area who are active on the site, they aren't interested in chatting for the most part, at least not in the local team.
So I'm pondering now. Not going to lay down an ultimatum just yet, but between now and my Spark anniversary - August 26th- I will be deciding. I'll be on vacation for part of that time near the end, so Sparking will be a challenge, a commitment. We'll see if I still have that commitment when the time comes.
I did well for a while. I got down to 193, felt like I was getting close to goal, and felt like I had a chance. Now I am moving away from it, going full circle to where I started. It might be time to stop running in circles and move on.
If you want to keep up with me on Facebook, send me a message and I'll tell you how. In the meantime, Spark on and we'll see what happens.