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Glad of decisions made

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

The other day I wrote about basically being "little Miss Antisocial" because of not wanting to sabotage my efforts for my "detox" . . . and you know what?? I am SO glad I did what I did.

I am back in range, debloated, feeling more in control instead of the social scene being in control of me, and it really does make a difference on one's psyche.

I shouldn't be surprised at this since I have done it for so long now, but really, it always does in a way. . . and I also get the phrase going through my head: "Why didn't you do this 3 weeks ago when you were in a uber-funk?"

It's the same as someone saying that they never regret working out. Same difference here.

It's always about taking that first step, that first effort, to get moving in the correct direction.

It's scary because it takes effort.

It's scary because it's all on you.

It's scary because in the end, no one is going to catch you but yourself...and sometimes we let ourselves down.

Some of us (including me) can change that last "sometimes" to "a lot of the times" depending on the season right? Right.

I think the mental struggle is really the hardest part of losing and keeping the weight off. That whole "will power" thing really has something to it. It takes extra effort to think of EVERYthing when it comes to this part of our lives:

I have to drink water - I hate water
I have to eat more fruit but there is nothing in the house
I have to get to the store
What am I going to make for a whole 7 days?
Will the kids or the significant other eat this with me?
I don't really want to go to the gym
I don't have a gym
I really hate cooking
I really hate prepping things and the pre-prepped are too expensive
I don't want to spend $$ on this food or that food
I really don't want to give up this or that - it's my only joy in life
I will go nuts if I don't have my Diet C-ke
I can't eat carrots forever
Etc. etc. this list goes on and on.

..and sometimes, going to what is easiest when we are stressed, not feeling well, unsupported, down. . . well, it's just easier to do that than to think because really, sometimes we are just "done" with what life has been throwing at us.

"Life gets in the way" is my most favorite phrase because it rings so true.

Anyway, the point here is that the first step is always the hardest... in ANYthing that we do it seems. And it's hard to remember (like it's amnesia or something) that once the first step was taken, it's the most thrilling, the most exciting, the most fulfilling thing that we have ever experienced. It's a fleeting getting on to that scary roller coaster for the first time. It's the heart in your chest, blood pumping through your body, it's the anxiety of the unknown.....and then you just do it and in that split second.... the moment is gone... because it's replaced by other feelings and emotions.

I wish I cold bottle it up and keep it in my pocket for when I am down. I wish I could do more things that bring that feeling around myself, but sometimes "Life gets in the way" and it's not the right time.

But this...eating right and moving... this I CAN do every day. The small decisions that make me feel better. This I can do. It's all me. It's all right now. It's not a roller coaster, but rather it's more like a marathon; and in the end I will have more energy, better health, better skin, better stamina to do those things that DO give that instantaneous thrill and also the joy that comes from observing life outside of our own inner feelings that sometimes get in the way too - like seeing your kid hit a ball or your cousins playing and growing together and just laughing.

Like a Sparkfriend NUOVAELLE said to me recently.... It's the everyday "Gleams of Joy" that we see that will make these everyday decisions to be healthy matter the most.

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    I am so glad to see that you have conquered and overcome your obstacles. I always forget that this is a struggle for you too. From the outside looking in, you always make it seem so easy, so it's easy for me to forget that it is a struggle for you as well. But good job!!!!!

    You know I am one of those people who exercise, and never miss.....I shouldn't say never, but rarely would be the correct word. But I'm also one of those people, who go ahead and eat and drink on the holiday; go ahead and have whatever I want when I go out to eat. You would think I would figure this now.

    But you are always so inspiring and motivating.......that one of these days it's all going to sink in for me.

    Keep it up Girl!!!!!

    Love ya!
    1749 days ago
    Congratulations on doing the hard part.

    And thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings about it all.

    We are all doing this together!
    1753 days ago
    Maintenance is hard because it never ends. There's no finish line, no "final weigh-in" to celebrate. It's every day.

    On that note, I was just browsing Spark Teams for something new or different, something to keep me motivated -- feeling a slump coming on. Or maybe I just need a vacation from challenge teams... We'll see.

    Cheers, and strength to you!
    1753 days ago
    the first step is the hardest, then you just have to keep going emoticon
    1754 days ago
    Bottling it up! That's such a great idea! The thrill, the excitement, the amazing feeling of accomplishment, all in a bottle that could be opened on the days that life simply gets in the way! If only it could really happen!
    On those difficult days, the days that we're suffering from amnesia and we don't remember any of the above, and this first step seems like the hardest thing in the universe, I find motivation from my Sparkfriends. People like you who have been doing the same thing for years, with many difficulties, and who have always found the courage to take this first step and continue on the right path. On days like these, sparkfriends become my gleams of joy and hope.
    I'm glad you're back in range and debloated (especially this second can be even worse that the reading on the scale!) And thank you for the reference. It makes me happy to know that my words meant something for you.
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    1754 days ago
  • DALID414
    We do make poor decisions when we don't think. I've prepped my lunches for the short week: salad in a jar! In the mornings without thinking I just grab a jar and by lunch (when I'm thinking clearly) I'm SO glad I'm prepared!
    1754 days ago
  • ICEANGEL0531
    Small steps = success!
    1754 days ago
  • KANOE10
    You are right about the first step being the hardest and then you are on your way! You get used to a certain way of living and change is hard. It is the everyday decisions that matter in weight maintenance.

    When I need to tweak my life or detox, I often tell myself that I want to wake up happy with the choices I have made. It works. You do wake up happy that you stayed on your own mini plan and feel in control.

    I am glad that you are back in range and feeling in control.

    Yesterday I was also happy that my plan was working and that I was back in range. I felt a glow of satisfaction that my efforts were working. That could be your "gleams of joy" that we see.

    Life does get in the way. You are showing strength by not taking the easy answer to stress, instead you are making good decisions for your health.

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    1754 days ago
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