Help.. My mind is challenging my ability to really make changes this time.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
My friends like to go out to eat at least once a week.
Of course I want to go with them. The difficult thing is that when I read the nutritional information for places the choices are not really good. Even when I make better choices they tend to use up at least a third of my daily calories. I can not even imagine how someone with a lower calorie range is able to eat out. I think back to all the times I went to some of these restaurants with no regard for what I was eating. It blows my mind to thing what the nutrition tracker would show if I had recorded them.
Not only do I usually go out once a week with my friends, I also serve and eat dinner at church on Wed nights. The meals are tasty, but often a nutrition/calorie nightmare. Butter, sauces, starches and salt. I have to pick the parts of the meals that are not real nutrition pitfalls. At church we always seem to have some event that is followed with eating. Tonight it was a cake and ice cream social. I told myself before I went I would just have some unsweetened tea.
I ate angel food cake and chocolate ice cream. I must say I did want seconds, but did not do it.
The thing that scares me about all this is the trend I see in my calories over time. The calories keep going up and edging to the top of my calorie range. I am afraid that the old patterns of eating without regard to the calories or portions will return. I am afraid that I will not be able to really have a healthy life. I fear that I will never reach the point where obesity is a thing that is only in my past. I know that sometimes I need to give myself a break and not feel like it is the end of the world if I do go over my calorie limit. It can sometimes happen and it not be a sign that I can not do this. (By this I mean that I can never control my eating or weight.)
I have to remind myself-
1. This new way of living is not a one day thing. My weight and unhealthy life did not happen in one day either.
2. Every day is a new opportunity to start again with choices for the day.
3. One day with some unwise choices does not doom me to failure, even if my mind does tell me that I am a failing
4. I have new tools and support that I did not have before. They can help me do this.
5. I am not the only one with these struggles, I can find people to encourage me to keep going and not give up.