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Sunday, June 30, 2013

I'm a walker...always have been. I tell others my eyesight, or lack thereof, has been the driving force that has kept me hoofing it for most of my life. The truth of the matter is, I love to walk. It just relaxes me and helps me think.

Today I went for a walk for a very practical purpose. It was grocery day. Every other week, I make the 40 minute round trip trek to supplement my diminishing food stores. I might be changing my lifestyle to keep my weight down, but I still enjoy eating. I strapped on my headphones, pulled on my cap, and set myself off on a nice summers walk.

It was a hot day, and by the time I got to Walmart, I was already sweating and feeling the heat roasting me like I was in a slow cooker. I felt the air conditioner hit me like a whole bunch of too much, and grabbed my cart to settle in for a hunt for eggs, half and half, bread, and my hippie hair ties. (never found those. I'm picky about what I use for my pony tails). I wandered the store for a while gathering my stuff, headed for the checkout line, and stopped at a metal bench outside the store to pack my deals in my back pack for the trip home.

I started walking under the light cloud cover, and could feel the sweat which had cooled on my body now growing hot again, and the weight of my pack slowly begin to drag on me, pulling me down. As I walked, I could feel the bags in my hands pulling down on me, and the pack dropping lower on my back, following the pull of gravity, and it wasn't long before I felt hot, and sore.

The huffing and puffing started next as I ascended the steep hill back towards home. I had a moment of clarity. I wasn't sure how much weight I was carrying, but I made a pretty educated guess. I figured it was probably somewhere between forty and fifty pounds, about the weight I've lost over the past several months. I was hauling that weight again, only this time I knew when I got home, I'd be able to shed it, and feel light again. My pack suddenly felt a little lighter, (it probably helped when I to the top of the hill), and I put a bit more of a spring in my step, and started working harder to keep up with Billy Joel as he sang "Only Human" through my headphones.

When I got home, and finally unburdened myself, I decided to put my thoughts to the test. I got my scale out, and placed my backpack on it, and then weighed the bags in my hand. I found out I had been greatly mistaken. The combined total of my groceries and the back pack came out to only about 30 pounds and some change. I was stunned. I never remembered being that tired or huffy and puffy when the weight was on me, and I was sure what I was carrying had to weigh so much more.

It never ceases to amaze me what we as human beings can allow ourselves to get used to. I am proud of my indomitable spirit that has allowed me to push on for so long and do my walking with all that extra weight a year ago. I am more proud of that same spirit which has helped me to drop that weight, and made my life so much easier.

Between the two of us, netsue and I have lost a combined total of 100 pounds, and I am proud of how we pushed to do what needed to be done before, and how much stronger, better, and easier we have made things through our better choices now. 30 pounds was enough...I don't need to carry 45 to appreciate how far we have come. There's still more to do, but for today, I will take a moment to bask in the 'aha!' moment, and the feeling of freedom when I dropped that backpack and those bags, knowing that weight was no longer mine to carry.

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    What a good writer you are!
    1727 days ago
    Very realistic...This was encouraging to do something about it. I have just started on the journey to lose weight. It is difficult to always make proper choices in eating and exercise as we live in a world where so many things grab our attention to eat or do that takes us away from the healthy lifestyle we need. Thanks for sharing.
    1727 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. You are an inspiration. You have accomplished so much. You should be proud of yourself. Linda from bean town emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1727 days ago
    Thank you so much for sharing your aha moment. It is truly inspirational. I never really thought about the weight I used to carry around on a daily basis. It was there and I dealt with it. It might have taken me longer to do things, but didn't really see that the weight was the problem.

    You have made me appreciate the weight I have lost even more that I did before. Things are so much easier and I feel good about myself.

    Thanks again,
    1727 days ago
    Thank u for sharing. I definitely needed that.
    I lost 50 pounds & now I've gained back 15 back
    & I'm panicking. So good to hear your story.
    I live in Texas & as u know its very hot here(over 100
    this week) Thats been my excuse for exercise. My eating
    Has also become haphazard also. 1day good the next
    2 bad. Hearing your story is very encouraging.
    Thank you for sharing.
    1727 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Congratulations on your weight loss on continued success.
    1727 days ago
    Great going! Best of luck! Keep up the good work!
    1727 days ago
    It is amazing to find out just how much we put ourselves thru without realizing it. Want seems ok to us is not ok to our bodies. You have done great keep up the good work. emoticon
    1727 days ago
    Good Job. The realization and motivation you found in your experience has reminded me of an aha moment I had a couple of days ago, while carrying groceries up the stairs. Since I began my journey of losing weight in january.. I have lost 15 lbs. and it was not easy. I was getting tired carrying the groceries..starting to feel "i might fall", but I thought of the weight I was carrying and how much I lost..that motivated me to think If I carried that much extra weight for years...I could carry these bags for a few more minutes and I won't fall. Then the energy just flowed through me and I made it up the stairs and felt more confident. I was just currently checking in the Sparkspeople and the gloomy feeling I had, has been shifted into gear and now I want to go swim or walk right now. I've been kind of at a standstill lately. Thanks for sharing your story...It helped me. Good Luck on your journey and may you have many inspirational experiences. emoticon emoticon
    1727 days ago
    Hi! JEFFALLEN70,


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    1727 days ago
    I liked your story alot. You put it in a way that made me want to get out of my current slide and back to doing what I need to do about well-being. Thanks for the boost to my spirit. Also glad to see the input from many others out there. Thanks to you all.
    1727 days ago
    Now that is what I would call a huge NSV (Non-Scale Victory)!! emoticon emoticon
    1727 days ago
    Thank you so so much for sharing your story =)) What a triumph!!! I know that I for sure sometimes get discouraged when I hit a long plateau or just not losing as fast as I think I "should" be -- but your story totally reminded me to be grateful for where I am and that I've come as far as I have =)) I still have a loooong road ahead of me, but thank goodness I'm where I am and not where I used to be ;)) Thank you again, so much! Hope you have a great day!
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  • YICHE12
    Good show! I enjoyed reading it and it did bring me back on memory lane also. No, I do not want that weight back on me every again.
    1728 days ago
  • KAREN608
    This brings back memories of walking a mile to the grocery store, getting heavy groceries, then lugging them home the mile home. I was 260 lbs when I did that once a week. Now I live in the country and don't try it as it'd be 3 1/2 miles one way....and I am out of shape now for distance walking...... but I have found memories of sore arms and the sense of accomplishment. Congrats on both of your weight losses.
    1728 days ago
  • NURSEDRE1119
    Keep up the great work and inspiring spirit!
    1728 days ago
    Wow! Thank you for sharing your story. The visuals you shared regarding the extra weight you carried encourages me to stay on track and persist with my weight loss journey. I visualize how I will be when I am older, I already have problems with my knees and the extra weight does not help....TAke good care and thanks for inspiring me......... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1728 days ago
    Your blog about walking inspired me. Thanks. emoticon
    1728 days ago
    Congratulations and well done! Thank you kindly for that inspiring story. emoticon
    1728 days ago
    Love this post! When I lost 40 lbs, I gave 40 lbs of food to my local food bank. It really is fun to see how much/how heavy that is.

    1728 days ago
    I did the same thing, carrying groceries and realized that I used to carry that much every day. It gave me apprciation for how hard it is for people to start walking. I used to think it was just my bad knees that made me hate to walk... the pain... but it was WORK. I was actually in pretty good shape when it came to my leg muscles because I was carrying that weight all the time. Anyways, thanks for the blog. It was a good/bad remember when and a reminder to be gentle with the overweight people around me.
    1728 days ago
    Wow, what an experience! So very apreciative that you shared this! You do a great job helping some of remember just how important it is to keep fighting our fight against the ugly weight monster! emoticon
    1728 days ago
    One of my SparkFriends told me to put cans of food in a bag to represent how much weight I lost, and I was SHOCKED to see how heavy it was even at 15 pounds. Doesn't it feel awesome?

    On another note, what are "hippie hair ties"?
    1728 days ago
    Thank you for your inspirational blog. I have been dieting for about 10 years off and on and I've never heard it put into that perspective. You have given me the drive to stay "on" rather than continuing this cycle. I have lost in the last 2 years 130 pounds. But, i still have a ways to go. I plan yo lose another 100 in 12 months.
    1728 days ago
    Congrats on ALL of your victories.
    1728 days ago
    I always mean to do that, the store is not so far away. I will make it my goal to walk there this week, saves me gas money, too! thanks Jeff
    1728 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    Week of 08/01/2013 - Featured Blog Post

    45 Pounds and Counting…. An Interesting Perspective

    Great to see you blog featured in the Spark Mail.. What an honor. emoticon
    1728 days ago
    Well done! Excellent Work! emoticon

    I don't think we hear enough praise for all the hard work it takes! Congrats! You & your partner are inspiring me to continue on my own weight loss journey, 27lbs lost so far......55 more to go! emoticon
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    Inspiring! Thank you!

    1728 days ago
  • CARNAHAN2013
    I'm so HAPPY for you! Keep up the good work and thank you for putting it into perspective. We sometimes forget to appreciate the accomplishments when were in the trenches. Well done.

    1728 days ago
    Very motivational, thanks for sharing! Congratulation on your lifestyle jouney so far. Keep going!
    1728 days ago
  • SUSIE3399
    This really put things into perspective for me and how much weight we lose and the importance of recognizing that fact. This is a great blog and very awe inspiring on so many levels. Thank you for sharing your success and your thoughts so that other spark people can utilize this knowledge to put into perspective in their own situation. That you walk to the store to shop is mind blowing and definitely inspiring.
    1728 days ago
    Wow, I really enjoyed reading your post. Congrats on the weight loss and your writing skills. Thank you for sharing. :)
    1728 days ago
    Thanks for the awesome post! It really brightened my day emoticon
    1728 days ago
    Bravo! clap! clap! clap! *throwing confetti* Loved this thanx for sharing.....
    1728 days ago
    Thank you so much for writing this! I never thought of things in this way and it helped me think about my weight differently.

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    A great picture of the practical effect of losing that weight. Thanks
    1728 days ago
    I loved your message. Never thought about extra weight in this way before. It really is amazing what we can get used to. Thanks for the insight!!!
    1728 days ago
    Very nice. I applaud you.
    1728 days ago
    Very encouraging story...well written and oh-so-true!
    1728 days ago
    What a great perspective! You are right, it is amazing what we humans will do to ourselves if over time we are not watching out and taking care of ourselves! You are an inspiration and keep up the good work!

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    1728 days ago
    You definitely have determination, a love for walking and drive within you! The only thing I find easy about this journey is listening to some good tunes and not having to find a place to park ....Thanks For Sharing!!
    1728 days ago
    What a wonderful blog. You're doing great. Congratulations on your success. You are an inspiration. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Well done thank you for sharing!
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