Weird topic, but at a loss and something is still missing :/
Friday, June 28, 2013
Ok so considering that it is 5am and I'm blogging should show how frustrated I am.
I blogged earlier this month how I noticed randomly that I didn't have a period in may, now here it is June 28th and I still haven't started. I have taken four home tests and they have all said negative. I had stopped my gnc active pak vitamins since they have the fat burners and metabolism pills in them. But after the fourth negative I started them back.
The last two tests I even stopped drinking over a gallon a day and jus drank a "normal amount" of water. Still negative. Tested first thing in the morning for the last three, still negative.
My bf doesn't know that I am late I feel like its better not to worry him until I know what is going on.
As far as pregnancy symptoms, I haven't really noticed anything. I'm peeing about every hour but I'm drinking a gallon and a half of water a day. I'm bloated off and on but then again it could have been related to what I was eating too. As far as keen sense of smell, my nose has always been very sensitive. Not really any nausea, I'm tired as hell all the time but that can be the stress of fighting with my ex husband and working 60-80 hours a week too.
I've had some binge issues on the weekend and then eating 1,000-1200 calories a day during the week (I shoot for 1200 but some days I think I've reached it and I really haven't)
My boobs aren't sore or anything like that.
The only "pregnancy symptom" other than a late period that I can think of is that I've been wanting more cold sweet things lately like slushies and snow cones and ice cream floats. I didn't want dinner the other day just a float. Well, that and fatigue I guess.
One problem is I don't have insurance, I need to sign up for insurance for me and my daughter, but I'm having trouble financially and it's so expensive I wasn't gonna sign up yet unless I was pregnant but everything says no. Some of my friends say it could be the exercise but I don't do athlete training exercise. I'm doing the c25k and some weight training a couple days a week.
I feel like there is pressure/very mild cramping in my lower abdomen now, and I always think a child would be a joy and blessing I don't know if now is a good time. I'm in the middle of filing for divorce and bankruptsy from my ex husband (my daughters father) and my bf is still looking for a good job he only has a part time one right now and he is looking hard jus can't seem to find one.
Oh and before anyone asks me and my ex have been separated since 2009 so the relationship I'm in now and have been for a year and a half has no bearing on my exmarriage.
I'm jus frustrated too cause I can't go to the doc jus yet cause I think if I'm diagnosed before the insurance kicks in that It will be considered a pre-existing condition. I dunno which way to go, plus I really don't wanna stop exercising I've been doing so good (even though the scale isn't really moving at the moment and hasn't in like two weeks)
Ugh I'm jus all around frustrated. We don't really have a lot of unprotected sex either, last time it was unprotected was in the end of April I had an April period but not a may and so far not a June either.
I'm not sure if I can jus chalk it up to exercising and dieting though.
Ugh jus at a loss.......