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The Journey Begins.... AGAIN???!!!

Friday, June 28, 2013

I have been here before. I have failed and tried again and only failed again. The biggest reason?? I guess you can say that I just plain GAVE UP. It wasn't easy! For me, food is the enemy! Now don't jump to conclusions. Let me explain that it is not because I eat to much! I suffer from starvation mode. When the kids were in school, I could get up and see them off to school. They would eat and head out the door, no big deal. Mom had a mountain dew. I would go on and search the internet or do a few things around the house... (wasn't too much because I had no energy) but I would be sipping on mountain dew all day long. I wouldn't eat though. The kids would come home from school and I would be reminded to get dinner on. Wait??? Food??? What did I eat today? NOTHING!!!!!!! :-O No way! I can't believe that I didn't eat all day! OK, so I would promise myself that I would eat something tomorrow. That tomorrow never came for me. The only time I ate during the day was on weight watchers!! Then I felt like that typical portrayal of a fat person. You know the one I am talking about! That fat person sitting there and eating ALL DAY LONG!!! Non-stop eating all day!!!! But each time I went to be weighed in... Guess what??!!! I lost weight! How was I losing weight when I was stuffing my face. I soon learned it was commonly called "starvation mode".

Anyway, we moved to our new home almost a year ago. In March, I quit smoking. Approximately 2 weeks later, I lost my taste for Mountain Dew... (at least most the time)!!! I still occasionally think I want one. I am still surprised that between smoking and the dew... I don't miss the smokes!!! I started having cravings for healthy foods. Pineapple is my favorite, especially fresh!!!! Fresh fruits are to die for, for me!!! Water has become a staple, along with pink lemonade. I know there is a lot of sugar in lemonade... but it is still better than dew!!! I will slowly wean myself off the lemonade except for an occasional drink! I still can't get the scale to move, or the clothes to feel loose. That is why I am here AGAIN!!! I have to try and find a way to get these sizes to go down! I have to see that scale eventually move! I do know that muscle weighs more than fat but when nothing is changing... something isn't going right!!! Good luck all and wish me luck!!! TY
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  • NIKO27
    2061 days ago
    I could have wrote this blog myself, No lie! I literally would go all day without eating. The only thing I would have was Diet Mt Dew. Then I started this progress. Now I am having to teach myself to eat again. Congrats on giving up the Dew and Smokes. I am still struggling with my Diet Dew addiction but getting better. If you continue eating within your calorie range, and exercising, and the weight is not coming off, I suggest that you have your doctor run blood work to verify everything is okay. That is how I found out about my thyroid condition. Best of luck to you!
    2062 days ago
    I think it is great that you are starting over again. At least you are not giving up!
    Congrats on giving up the smokes and the dew! That's great!
    2062 days ago
    Good Luck! I know what you mean about being on WW and feeling like you are ALWAYS eating. When I was on it I ate NONSTOP! I felt like my life revolved around food but didn't it always? I mean at least then it was revolving around healthy food... I just don't know I am not sure there is any right way to do things. the only thing I can say is just keep trying to reach your goals w/e they may be. AGIAN GOOD LUCK! emoticon
    2062 days ago
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