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Stuck in a funk

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

So I'm stuck in a bit of a funk. Kinda started last week with mom yelling at me. She told me when I said I wasn't going to the fitness center durin the week that I needed to go more than just on weekends. She said she was going to start going to the fitness center on Tuesday and yesterday came and went and she didn't go which really was no surprise. I didn't thin she would. She decided she was going to go every Tuesday Thursday and Saturday. Probably wont happen knowing her. I just don't think she wants it bad enough. She got mad at me last night and said I was actin snotty because I told her I would rather clean up Elijah's toys by myself than fight and end up doing it myself anyways. She threw the spoon she had and then slammed her bedroom door. Whatever. She got up this morning and was out the door with the door locked and in her car by the time I was even out of bed and she didn't text me at all today. Last night Elijah wanted to see the neighbors but since their daughter was staying else where they made plans to go see a movie with their friend and Elijah was upset and didn't want a hug until she was out of sight and Elijah decided he wanted to walk and then when we got to the end of the next building he wanted to go home and then he decided he wanted to take a walk so I decided not to follow to see how far he would go and he ended up running past the next building and past the fitness center and onto the road. So I ran over to him and laid him on the ground and he started crying as usual and said he wanted to go to the sand box and I said no and I was so tired of his indecisiveness and told him we were going home so homeward bound we went. We stayed up until 10 because I wasn't in the mood for yet another fight at bedtime. He went to bed with out a fuss. Might end up staying up that late anyways tonight to avoid yet another fight. Sunday we went to Walmart because mom needed bigger shorts. She complains about her weight gain and yet she eats a big bag of Cheetos by herself in a week and doesn't exercise. Saturday and Sunday mornings I am taking myself to the park and running around the baseball field. I'm going to wear my new work out clothes. It felt good running for a minute last night. Mom doesn't know my plans to go to the park in the mornings and running. I filled out an application for hobby lobby today. All I have to do is put a date on it and take it over. When Elijah gets up tomorrow I think we might take a trip over there. We are going to take Elijah to the fire station on Saturday and he's going to have a tour and see how everything works. Should be fun.
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    I am hoping that Elijah outgrows some of his issues. I try to let the things mom says roll down my back but I am tired of hearing about it. She asked me last night when I was going back to the fitness center and I said on Saturday. She said that I had to much work to do to just go two days a week. She said that the time in the evenings is her time with Elijah. Sometimes she tries to rush my time at the fitness center by asking when I'm getting back or she says we are waiting for you. I try going there for myself.
    1790 days ago
    I agree with the previous comments - just do it for yourself. Still, it's frustrating to live with anyone, regardless of relationship, who is forever saying things and then going back on them. Just remember, she has her problems too. No, she shouldn't take them out on you, but you might just have to learn to let her roll off your back. Elijah is just a small child - hopefully he will grow out of some of his issues. Good luck!
    1791 days ago
    I have had mother-daughter issues with my mom for over 40 years. She has been on me for my weight for a majority of those years. I finally had to tell her that when I go to the gym is my business. Love the support, but I really need to do it for myself, not because I don't want to disappoint you.

    My advice for what it's worth would be just try to concentrate on your own health program. If she is not dedicated yet, she might not be ready. Just do your best and when she sees you improve and succeed, maybe you will inspire her.

    Just a thought. I wish the very best for both of you!
    1791 days ago
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