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So Frustrated: A Vent

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

So, I'm having a really bad day and I'm going to just put it all out there on this blog, and then turn around and try to put it back in perspective.

So today it's raining cats and dogs and the kids keep fight and needing intervention from me as I'm trying to get us all ready and packed up to go to the gym for a pilates class I wanted to try (need to get some strength training in this week bad!), But due to their bad behavior, perhaps my unpreparedness, and get the kids in and out of the car in the stupid rain, I was too late to go to the class. UGH. I did. however, have a good cardio day, but didn't have the self motivation to hit the weight room by myself.

I'm gaining weight. I am so hungry all the time this week. I suspect that it is related to my cycle but I want to snack all the time, and I am giving in to it often. I have been keeping my diet "whole foods" but not always completely paleo, and maybe just getting too many calories per day. I haven't been tracking. I need to start tracking. One more thing to add to my "to do" list.

I have a bridesmaid dress to fit into in 7 weeks, and at this rate it won't fit! How embarressing to tell the bride (on of my very best friends) that I'm an idiot an ordered my dress too small and now I can't be in her wedding....I CANNOT let that happen.

My weight has crept up about 3 pounds (167). And I do not feel like it is all muscle since I know my diet hasn't been perfect and my clothes are not fitting any looser than they were 2 weeks ago.

Also, despite spending way more time stretching after my workouts than the average gymgoer at my gym, my hamstrings and lower back are still SO tight. I've always be big on stretching every day, and it's totally messing with my mind that my flexibility is not improving at all. I'm stretching daily, drinking 1/2-1 gallon of water a day, and getting plenty of (healthy) fat in my diet. Any blog readers have any thoughts on what I could do to help loosen my muscles. I'd love to visit my chiropractor and get a massage, but I don't know when I'll have the time/childcare to go do it.

If anyone reading this has any advice, please please please give it to me. I'm just having "one of those days" and feeling kind of deperate. Do I continue with Paleo, but try to get the slip ups back under control (no fruit, honey, peanut butter - those have been my major slip ups), do I do another juice fast for a week? What do I do next? I'm on board for the long all with eating a clean, whole food diet. I know how good I feel keeping my diet this way. Just right now, I have this wedding to fit in a dress for and it's totally stressing me out.

OK. Now to put it all back in perspective. This is not the end of the world. It's a dress. Maybe it could be taken out a bit if needed. I doubt they could order me a larger size in time for the wedding, but maybe....or maybe my weight loss will pick up a bit and I'll fit the dress. I need to lose 1 dress size in 7 weeks - that sounds doable to me!

On the plus side, I have not totally screwed up and started eating junk food, I'm just over doing it on the "good stuff". Also my workouts have been very consistant 5-6x a week! That's good!

Also, my Grandma's colon biopsies came back cancer free! Praising God. We (and the doctors) were a little worried. My mom was awarded a scholarship from her school and my family is all healthy and well. Slow weight loss is not the end of the world.

In closing, I would like everyone to please pray for my spark friends LeVell and Judi (midnigher and heyitsjudi). Last weekend, during a storm a very large branch fell on Judi and she has been in the hospital with a breathing tube and head injuries. Not only has she been a very inspiring spark friend, she also has 2 little boys and a husband who love her and need her to get healthy fast. Please pray for healing and strength.
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    Just saw your blog today. Have you done HIIT lately? If so, that might be the ticket to start dropping weight again. Often if you are truly starving, it's because your body actually needs the calories. So don't try to avoid eating and whatnot. I would save the juice fast for maybe 2 weeks prior to the wedding, in case the dress for some reason still isn't fitting. That gives you a good 4-5 weeks to kick things up a notch in your diet and exercise routines.

    If you need an idea for HIIT I really recommend the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. It's killer. :-)
    1816 days ago
    Hang in there Gymgirl...I know you are looking forward to the weight loss in 7 weeks but I would say plan for plan B in case other words know your options for the dress if it doesn't fit. Then apply what you can to your routine, do what you would do for your weight loss goals over all...if you get crazy with trying to do too much the stress will hold you back and you will feel defeated if it doesn't work out the way you were hoping. Your focus maybe could be being in your friends wedding and not about fitting in the dress so see what you need to do to do that....that's what it really is all about. Don't give up the wedding because of the dress, check out the options to be at the wedding. I know its stressful with everything you have on your alone are a handful. Great job going to plan B when you couldn't get there in time for the class.
    1820 days ago
    Oh dear Girl, I feel your pain.
    Breath , please sit and take twenty slow breaths.. hide in the bathroom if you need to escape from the kids to do this. While you're in there, run a warm bath. When was the last time you took a warm bath? Do you have a lavender scent that you can mix in there, if not.. go get some vanilla extract, you must have a scent that you like somewhere. Then get in that tub... even if you only stay for 12 minutes of soaking. I promise you will feel better and renewed.

    Sending you good thoughts for your day.

    1820 days ago
  • SKATER787
    I agree with RaceToLose that your body has mechanism to hold on to the weight. Fastest way to increase your metabolism is weight lifting and anaerobic such as sprinting and jumping rope. Do 3 days of weight lifting a week alternate with 3 days of 1/2 hour cardio with the last 5-10 minutes with anaerobic portion. Don't do an hour long cardio, as it takes too much time and poor results. Don't waste time with Pilates right now as you need to slim down quick. Rest for 1 day a week. Many people have success with green smoothies, add that your Paleo and you should do well with this combo of intense exercises and decent foods. Good luck.

    P.S. And yes, takes BardicGrrl's advice and loosen up the dress. And you're all set to win-win.
    1821 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/26/2013 10:31:13 PM
    KISS - Keep it simple sweetie.

    It's amazing that you got to the gym at all. Give yourself a brownie point, and stop flogging yourself.

    The dress, ah yes, the dress. Don't panic. Find a good tailor and have it let out a bit. I've been there too, but I did the tailoring myself, because I used to do that sort of thing.

    The kids: Enjoy them because someday they will be adults, and you won't be able to turn back the clock on that.

    And always remember to do your baby steps. Even if you think you've advanced beyond baby steps, go back to them if things seem to be piling up on you.
    1821 days ago
    Ok lets start with I am Sorry your going through this entire mess ! I know you do not want to hear it happens , so hear it goes some simple suggestions take it or leave it - I will not be offended. When I was recovering from the broken legs and had severe muscle pain I did two thing on regular basis fresh juice with added ginger and soak in Epsom salt (eucalyptus and spearmint) the magnesium in the Epsom salt can help you burn calories. I know a ton of those diets work ( such as Paleo) do not know much about but I do know that stress is going hold on to weight . Your hypothalamus controls your starvation mode which we all know holds onto to weight. So relax - at least try - venting is good !! The magnesium is a mineral that is essential nutrient for digestion of food. We need a balance of these nutrients to help the enzymes digest your food . Yes , most likely its your cycle that is putting you into a fed frenzy . Its OK , your probably freaking out about this dress. Get a good nights rest tonight but prior to bedtime drink and eight oz. glass of warm water with 1/2 tsp. of lemon juice and a dash of cayenne pepper - strange right - wrong this will cleanse the bile from your kidney and liver ( without giving you the runs) All this info has worked for me and was taught to me by a Nurse Practitioner for an OB/GYN - she has been on Dr. OZ - Marcella Peck ( The Total Core Weight) tomorrow do not look back - start tracking - Hope this helps emoticon K
    1821 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/26/2013 5:09:12 PM
    Wow! You've got a LOT going on. Sorry its so stressful. I see you are trying your best not to get out of perspective...but it doesn't seem like you are out of perspective at all to me. I would be stressed about the dress..the kids fighting, your friend. It's all stressful. I am amazed that you STILL got to the gym under the circumstances.

    You and I both need to start tracking our food in Sparkpeople. Deal? I usually overdo it on the good stuff...which still packs on weight. Without tracking I don't know what I've really eaten.

    I hope all things get better quickly for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1821 days ago
    Great job. One bad day is not the end of the world
    1821 days ago
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