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Wednesday, June 26, 2013

I have majorly fallen off the bandwagon. With finishing up my bachelor's of social work, everything fell to the wayside-eating right, working out, and taking time for myself. Now, I am at the highest weight I have ever been and I feel like complete and total crap. If I was discouraged before, I am even more so. I can't continue on like this. I am acutely aware of how my body feels with the weight and how I look with all this extra weight. Sometimes I feel so powerless to do anything about it. I have adopted the mindset of "I'll always have been fat and will be, so why bother?" I know that is not good for me, but that is how I am feeling right now.
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    I think we all know what it feels like to fall off the bandwagon, so I think you will meet with understanding rather than judgement.

    You did a great thing by reaching out to the supportive community that is SparkPeople, because it is filled people who have been where you are, and understand what your challenges are and who will encourage you when you feel low. Like any good friend, they remind you of what you want in those times when you can't see it.

    For me, getting back on track is about motivators, Everyone has different triggers - revisiting their list of goals, talking to family or friends, seeing a dress in the shop window, a doctor's visit, a stranger's smile .... the list goes on...

    So my advice is to keep reaching out and sharing your struggles till you reach someone or something that ignites your spark again.

    Don't beat yourself up. Don't hide yourself. We all need help and encouragement sometimes. Asking for help ( which you have done ! ) is the best way to get it :)

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    1820 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/30/2013 6:17:20 PM
    I am sorry that you are feeling the way you are right now. It is not easy to be overweight, and I can relate to how distressing it is when reaching a low point in health. Try to simply accept where you are, and do small things to improve your heath. I had to take a year off of dieting, because (coupled with some serious life challenges) it was just too emotionally upsetting when I wasn't successful. I have spent the last 6 months focusing on simply not GAINING weight, and have actually lost a couple pounds in the process, but better than that have learned to be kinder to myself and be realistic about the rate I can expect to lose. I guess I just know that it has to be slow and steady for some people. So good luck as you are setting out again, and don't be too harsh on yourself.. you don't have to be fast about losing weight, and each pound you lose makes you that much healthier! :)
    1824 days ago
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    You can do it! I know when you are not on track you feel bad and think in a negative way. Do something good for yourself and you will start to feel better and think more positively. Something small--it could be drinking water or going for a walk. It could be getting your goals written out.

    Anything you can do for yourself will help. Small changes add up. You can do this!

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    1824 days ago
    I know how you feel. I started last year in April and was all gun-ho. Even lost 30 lbs, ran a few 5k's and was looking forward to being my goal weight this summer as well as training for 10k's. Well winter hit and I got sick. That stopped the working out. With the winter holidays I started eating all the good food. Spring came and with it being my daughter's senior year there was all kinds of awards ceremonies and banquets to go to. Finally now that school was out I decided I need to get back on the band wangon. I know my clothes are tighter and some don't fit. I stepped back on the scale and have put on 15 lbs. So depressing!

    I am back on the wagon and trying again.

    Good Luck. Always remember "Take care of yourself and your health"

    1824 days ago
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