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Wednesday, June 26, 2013

When I first joined spark I was slow learning how to use the tracking tools.(Who am I kidding? I'm still slow!) It frustrated me because I could not quickly track my food. The kids are also computer hogs and I would end up tracking on my iphone. I'm sure normal people do it easily but it took me forever! So, I ended up getting discouraged and I just tracked when I felt the urge but made conscious choices to eat smaller food portions. I was exited to see a 7lb loss very early. I've been 200 lbs for 6 years and recently crept up to 209. I had tried many "diets" but honestly could never do more than a day, so the 7lb loss made me super happy! I decided this was going to be easy!! So I continued on my way, on and off tracking and low and behold when I stepped on the scale I had gained 5 pounds. I got on and off and on and off just to make sure. I was spitting mad!

I realized then, that I needed to think about my eating every day. I can't just put it in the back of my mind right now. I thought because I lost so easily, it seemed to me, that I could just wing it. Maybe when I'm used to eating what my body needs and and not 4x that much, I will be able to relax a bit. I don't know. Maybe some of you are in that "place" or maybe that place doesn't exist for everyone. So I decided to do what some SP folks suggests and get rid of certain trigger foods. I started measuring portions, making sure I had a fruit for dessert when I'm craving sweets and started to get more walking in and you know what? I lost the 5lbs and 7oz. I had to include the ounces Lol.

I remember asking someone, who had obviously lost a lot of weight, how they did it and they said," eat less and exercise." I felt like they were making fun of me. Now I understand it's true. It's just not EASY! At least not for me. Tonight when everyone was having smores I had watermelon. It was hard but it would have really put me over calories for the day and I really like knowing that the scale is moving down.

I know I can't overcome my mental battles every time. Recently I listened to a sparkradio broadcast where Lilly and Karen were encouraging us to ask ourselves if we really want to eat something or if it's only emotional. They followed that up with asking if we really want that taste of food as much as we want to be thin. Do you really want to eat that? They asked. And later in the day when I was tempted I stopped and pondered their questions. I mean, I really stopped and thought good and hard about it and I answered with, "YES I DO!!!" And I lost the battle.

But what I know now is that it's a lifestyle. Not an all or nothing contest I only have one chance at. I'm learning every day and for someone who's new to limiting food and exercising, I'm pretty proud of myself!! I am soooo glad I found SP and have the great spark friends that I do because I know I could not do it without them. I have read sooo many wonderful blogs and have had questions answeres and most of all been encouraged that I can really do this!!

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    We've all tried to wing it from time to time. It's surprising how many calories we can mindlessly eat. I think you are on the road to success!
    1784 days ago
  • CANDOK1260
    yes you can really do this and you already are
    1784 days ago
    I am so with you on this. That is me! You can do it though...I have faith in you.
    1788 days ago
  • SUZANNE65203
    I can totally relate. It is simple to describe what to do: eat less and exercise but it is not easy to carry out. I recently have gained back 10+ pounds because I decided I would rather eat the food. I am still trying to get back in balance. One day at a time!
    1791 days ago
    Congratulations for getting past the all-or-nothing mentality. That is a major accomplishment. It took me a long time to get there, but I think once there, we are there for life! Before SP, I never thought I would be so aware of what I eat. But I am now. It sounds like you are too. I am proud of you and very happy for you! Keep up the great work! You are worth it!!

    1792 days ago
    you can do this! Just the thought you are showing about what to do and what not to do is a step forward!
    1793 days ago
    Good for you!!!
    1793 days ago
  • KIMPY225
    Great job on the weight loss! There is no easy way to lose weight. Eating less and exercising is a big part of it! Everyone has to find their own path. Eating less of the "bad" food and more of the healthy food is important to learn! Keep going! emoticon
    1793 days ago
    1793 days ago
  • HEXE63
    emoticon on the loss. I know exactly how you feel and it is so easy to get a little derailed when you don't track everything because little things add up more than one would like to think. We can do this and we are doing it together emoticon
    1793 days ago
  • HEXE63
    emoticon on the loss. I know exactly how you feel and it is so easy to get a little derailed when you don't track everything because little things add up more than one would like to think. We can do this and we are doing it together emoticon
    1793 days ago
  • LUANN7
    1793 days ago
    I'm pretty new at this - I'm learning everything and still know and feel that SP is going to assist me in reaching my goal. so I know where you are coming from.

    I think this site is awesome and I'm glad for all the support we show each other! Keep practicing and you'll get there. This is a lifestyle change for me.

    So hang in there you're in the right place! emoticon
    1793 days ago
  • MTAL203
    Terrific! I know just how you feel because I am in the same place! SP is really encouraging and if you are faithful about honestly tracking your food sometimes just knowing you will have to "write it down" is enough to make you stop and think about eating it. My biggest problem is adding variety to my meals. I tend to eat the same things day after day and right now it's fine but I am sure eventually I will get tired of those same things and eat something I really shouldn't. Thank God for all the "steamers" out there by Birds Eye and Green Giant - I can add some chicken breast meat and have a good hot dinner in 6 minutes - a large portion, tasty, and quick. That really works for me and fits into a busy lifestyle. Keep working - you are doing great! emoticon
    1793 days ago
    It sounds like you are doing really good. It does take time to learn to be comfortable with the food tracker. Have patience. I put my own foods in the tracker. I did it for so long, that I have a pretty good list to choose from. Now all I have to do is pick favorites and type in just one word and a list will come up for me to look at and chose from. Practice makes perfect. lol Keep up the good work. It really is a lifestyle for a lifetime. A healthier you is a healthier wife and mom. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1793 days ago
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