Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Some days I think *I* am going crazy. This has been the most difficult start to summer that I can remember. Last week we were flat on our backs with the stomach crud. I felt like I spent the entire week either cleaning puke or diarrhea (sorry, TMI...). One of us would get it and as soon as we were getting over it, another one was coming down with it. I finally steam cleaned my house trying to get rid of it. So far, I have been plus five days and no puke so I am feeling pretty good.
Life is not without its challenges, however. It has been challenging with all the kids at home on summer break. It is quite the interesting swing going from teenage angst to toddler tantrums. My little honeybee is in the throes of his terrible twos. I have survived it three other times and I know I will survive it again, but it is so very hard some days. Some days I do feel so proud of myself for not being a full-blown, raging alcoholic but other times I question that decision... (joking... sort of...) It is a challenge to be happy in the moment sometimes because I KNOW full well I will someday down the road look back and miss these times. I know that my DD is on her way out as she will be a sophmore this year and as crazy as the tantrums make me, the tender and sweet cuddle moments make it so worth it. My little honey bee turns two at the end of next month which seems surreal to me most days. I sit here scratchimg my head and wondering where time goes most of the time.
Other than the chaos of life, things with the BLC are going great. I am loving the challenge and it is really keeping me focused and motivated. I started week 5 of Turbo Fire -- I am so in love with that program. My little man has recently decided that getting up at about 5:30 seems to be his waking time so that puts an end to my early morning workouts. I love my early morning workouts -- the house is quiet and it is just me. I don't have to worry abotu life getting in the way of my workouts as I can get them over and done with. But since he is waking up so early, I have shifted my workout times to the afternoon when he lays down for his nap. As much as I love the early morning workouts, I do enjoy the amount of effort I can put into my afternoon workous. I am not so groggy with waking up that I can really put in 110%. I came away this afternoon literally drenched. So much so my hair was wet.
Eating is good, too. I feel so good about things. I will weigh in tomorrow for the challenge and we'll see how it goes. I try not to hinge my moods too much on the reading on the scale. The scale is moving down slowly, but it is finally moving in the right direction!
I am going to finish out the summer working on the Turbo Fire program and when the kids go back to school, my reward for surviving the summer (haha!!) will be to get myself a gym membership so I can start working the NROL program and spinning again.
So that is about it. Life is crazy. I have hardly any time to Spark minus posting in my CAMO team but things will (((hopefully))) settle down a bit as we settle into summer.
Oh! and can I just say how FREAKING EXCITED I am for Dexter to start back up. I have been dying waiting for it! Dexter and Breaking Bad. I can't wait!!!!!!!