day one

Sunday, June 23, 2013

So today I weighed in at more than I expected. I look and feel worse than ever. I didn't see a way to get better before and sue don't now but I still need to try to take care of myself. The past 3 mos I was in a coma, a food coma and bed ridden. Perfect way to reach obesity. I can't stand to look at myself. My clothes don't fit and I have no life. Hopefully tomorrow I get to the gym with my friend. I feel discouraged and depressed. I guess I just need to commit here. I'm probably in a negative mod because though my blood sugar is high I didn't binge for a few hours and my body is probably withdrawing from the stimulation plus my stomach is still full from yesterday. Will I ever get to be okay again?i don't feel it. My mom said do an 8am jog tomorrow. I agree. If I stay up that's probably breast after spending days of 14 plus hours lazing in bed and being sedentary bingeing when awake. I just don't agree how this fat body can burn the calories. I packed on 55 pounds of fat in less than 6 months. And yes that's just the fat gain.i also lost a lot of muscle, bone and water and developed serious health problems and wore down my adrenal and digestive system s. I have no life and feel more depressed. What can I do
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  • GINAC0
    First of all, I will pray for you. I will pray for you to gain the resolve to change your life. You don't have to start out running a marathon. Simply begin by walking down the block and back. And build from there.

    I pray you realize your self worth. You are loved not only by this SparkPeople community, but also by Jesus Christ. Please feel free to message me. I would love to talk to you more and get to know you and help motivate you.

    1821 days ago
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