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Another WEEK Started and Another HILL to Climb!

Sunday, June 23, 2013

I am happy to have started another week. I woke up Friday morning feeling awful. My head was hurting and I did not sleep well. My husband put me back to bed and told me just to sleep. I slept until 1 pm. I felt a little better. There was no way we were gonna workout.

Saturday was a busy day. We did get a workout in then either. So we basically had two days off. It was nice, but my nerves got to me because I feel like there is no rest time for me...I got too much to lose.

This morning we got up a little late. We did stadiums at out football field. They were a BEAST. There were six in all to do and boy my glutes were burning. What got to me was on the visitor's side the stairs were REALLY HIGH AND STEEP. i have been wanting to tackle them ever since we started working out. As I started up the stairs I know there were about 20 more than the other side. I ran up those in no time. These however took me a minute and I had to stop and rest. When I got to the top my FEAR got to me.

When I was younger and smaller I use to love scary roller coasters and rides. I loved a challenge. When I started getting heavier gravity really took a toll on me when I rode scary rides. The one I remember was at Sea World. I was probably about 75 pounds lighter and we got on Splash Mountain. Hell, it was the only ride that did not have straps I could not fit. When we reached the drop it was all good until I realized that my body was not as young or small. My body nor my mind got a thrill out of that ride. I got a fear of heights and wet pants after that.

This morning was my first time being so high and my legs got very weak when i reached the top and then turned around to go down. My husband joined me on top, but I told him i can't make it down. He is always the one motivating me in a work out, but it was not happening this time. He left me and said "You can do it"...I was like HELL NAW! Luckily there was a fence on the side to grip, but he had to talk me all the way down and it took every bit of 10 minutes.

He kind of got on my nerves because he just did not believe I was that scared. I went into a RANT about how he was not me and I was not doing them again. He basically mild down because i can get crazy. I wanted to hang it up after that and go home.

I was very mad at myself because I felt like it defeated me. I can't wait to lose a little wait so i can get my balance back. I will be able to do those VISITOR stadiums with no fear.

I forgot to add that I also went walking with a friend who invited me to go with her. She was nice about it, but when you walk with a friend, especially someone you invite, you walk with them. Honey, she, and her group she walked with, left me in the wind. Plus it started to rain (POUR DOWN). I walked for about 3 miles and then called it quits. I was worried about getting sick

My dinner from Thursday is on my blog.

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    I also have a fear of falling. I can't really say it is a fear of heights, it is of falling. I know it probably has a lot to do with my weight over the years. That feeling is terrifying. Stay away from that side of the stadium for a little while and then slowly work your way up to reaching the top.
    1760 days ago
    I'm so sorry your friends left you behind. I love your honesty in your blogs. You tell it like it is. The fact that you are willing to confront the issues and just tell it like it is will serve you well.
    1760 days ago
    I am sorry that you got left behind. That's awful.
    1760 days ago
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    1760 days ago
    emoticon day either way! I think 3mi is emoticon so emoticon

    I am happy you still had fun on the ride. Imagine how much more fun you are going to have as you reach your goal! Love yourself now because you still matter and need love no matter the size!

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